sadden

suppose to be working now..
but tummy ache like hell.
took the day off.
dear went st james with friends.
i am just the ODD one left...

i went home.

pain. pain. pain.
later going down to see doctor.

siew choo sent me a sms saying..
"let us enjoy e last moments of 2006 wif our loved ones."

i so feel like replying her...
how can i enjoy when my loved ones isn't with me but enjoying with friends totally forgotten about me?

sadden.
new year eve is gone like that.
spent alone like this...
rather be working...
i so wish i am working with my colleages now!
at least i am smiling...
but my tummy doesn't wanna listen to me.

you can always realise something when things happen......

i am never yours.
never did you want me to be yours all along.
i don't seem to have any place in your heart..
i love you so much but yet i couldn't feel any love from you as day passes.
i am so not important at all.
u never seem to cherish me.

well..
perhaps i am just not good enough for u.


i so wish to tell you that i really wanna spend the last few moments of 2006 with u..
i so wanna watch fireworks with u!!
but i will never get the chance.

tears flowed.
:'(

gloomy day

i feel so alone.
not feeling well.
tummy ache.
ouch*

dear went out with friends just now..
wanted to tell him about this..
but guess it wasn't important to him.
maybe tell him on sat when i see him ba.
he seems so sian also..
nvm.
the most i can keep it to myself.

hope everything will goes smoothly for me.
my health is some sort going downhill.
personal*

today work BAR.
quite relax la..
bad weather..
not much customers also.
left exactly at 11pm.
sam was off today.
thank god.
nth much le.

slping now.
bye.

moments worth remembering in my heart

mentioning that i was waiting for him throughout the whole night in my previous blog..

i went to slp after updating my blog.

Zzzzzz...

he called me at around 8am+++ to say he just reach home.

i was asking him why he didn't give me a call when he knows he's going to stay longer.

was kinda fed up on the phone la..

so i just said to him..

u go slp first lor..i will come in the afternoon.

then he said he want me to accompany him slp.

i was like ...

dono wat else to add on.

i feel like i'm more obedient like a dog.

don think so?

forget about that.

at least he still bothers to make me happy.

we went to rest awhile..

but i nvr get to slp at all..

maybe cos of the rush here and there..

my body was awake liao.

went jurong point to have lunch.

delifrance.

haix.

service sucks like siao.

slackers all around.

omg.

nth much.

went home again..

slack awhile den go out.

YES!

dear dear bringing me out to have steamboat.

i wanna have it so long ago liao..

took cab down to PS...

raining cats & dogs!!!

bought the 11.20pm tickets first..

watching Death Note II.

then go walk around searching places to have dinner.

quite packed at everywhere la..

XMAS EVE ma...

so happy lor.

so long nvr go out during xmas eve..

always work work work...

this year finally can go out with the one i loved the most.

we went to sakae sushi in the end.

i have paper steamboat that xmas eve.

nice..

feel so warming to have something hot during a cold day especially with a special someone..

just love this special guy,

NG J.H

still have lotsa time after dinner.

went arcade..

wasting time..

at last..

time was finally crawling to 11.10pm.

then bought food & drinks before proceeding to cinema.

movie starts.

not bad la..

worth it.

long movie..

show ended at 2.00am.

2.5 hrs of show.

lolx.

almost wanna drift to dreamland..

took cab back home again...

reached home at around 2.45am?

slp slp slp.

________________________________________

woke up at 12pm+++ ba..

dear ordered oishi pizza.

had the kimchee chicken while he had the beef...

no programs on xmas.

stayed at home.

so tired also..

around 6pm..

dear slept first.

contagious..

i wanted to just slp awhile then watch tv.

but in the end..

i woke up at 9pm.

woke dear up also.

watch tv again..

then feel hungry..

went down to have our late dinner or supper i should say..

........

watch tv again........

then slp.

dear fall aslp quite soon ar?

i only managed to fall aslp at 3am+++

woke up at 5.30am cos dear gotta go for work.

raining ..

cold manx*

took train back..

dear left at jurong station.

still got long way to tiong bahru.

listen music :))

wanted to walk home..

but raining la..

then took bus.

some gals were shivering cos they nvr wear jacket.

walk extremely fast back home.

got a lil drenched.

slept all the way till 2pm..

and now i am updating this super long blog.

haha*

wonderful times always passed damn fast.

tml..

i am gonna start work again!

sucks!

i am working 5days straight nxt week!

sian la.

this week sun will be the new year eve.

manx..

gotta work.

sure end super late.

well..

time to end here.

wanna change blogskin.

will update soon.

sad like hell..

i waited and waited..
but he never called me at all.

disappointed.
but i'm waiting..
pat kor & bin kor accompany me till 4.00am.
thanks to both of them.

thought he will called me at ard 2-3 plus..
but end up..
waiting and waiting endlessly..

my heart is crying.
does he know i'm waiting for him?
even if he's not gonna meet..
why cant he just gimme a quick call to let me know not to wait for him?
is it my fault?
am i stupid to wait endlessly for him?

reached home at 4.30am.

i am still waiting..

its now 5.46am.

reaching 6am le..

waited whole night for him.

pat said i am so silly.

am i really that silly?

i'm breaking down..

the only reason for me to hold & cling on is my love for him.

my LOVE for him.

this is the only reason which makes me strong thou i'm falling..

bad gal

i am so bad.
i love him..
yet i caused him big trouble.
he's so sad now.
no mood for everything like that.

sorry.sorry.sorry.
i didn't mean it.
and yet i caused it.
i caused all this.

i am such a nuisance.
i feel like a jinx.

feel like he's having bad luck after being with me.
not good things..
but all bad stuffs.

mixed feelings

today went anna's daddy wedding..
so happy for them.
made me so wanna get married too.
lolx*

took some pics in the london cab..
haha*
was lucky to get it.
so comfy.

______________________________

i miss my dear dear...
did he miss me too?

i love u.
i so wish to cya tml night...

sicky

headache.
stomach ache.

miserable.
boring.

waiting for time to reach 5pm.
then gotta bathe & meet dear.

fcuk it.
i'm broke again.
sian.
but i am willing to be broke this time.
its a different feeling.
cos i managed to help out a lil while.
its ok.

he has spent lotsa money on me too.

i'm happy then can liao.

aiyo.
dear just called me.
asking whether wanna movie..
Curse Of The Golden Flower.

ok lor.
watch lor.
msg him the time liao.
waiting for his reply.
k.
i now go play game.

wanna enjoy like siao.
before i starting work in 2 weeks time.
my longest break ever in Via Mar.

love it.
but no money.
gonna pia work on jan liao.
cos wanna buy clothes...

still searching for my PINK puma watch.
my top priority!

weird feeling

i don't seem to feel the right way.

we don't seem to be sweet anymore.
getting dull.

"am i the only one feeling this way?"
its like i'm the only one wanting to be ........
one-man show?
topics are changed whenever i mention i'm ........
sounds like i am so "don't want face" like that.
very hurting lor.

i hope not.
i hope i am wrong.
pls let it be wrong.
if not..i will be real damn sad.

no more bitter tea for me.
i had enough.
its real miserable.


P.S: ... above means i don't wish to mention it out

i am so bad.

i am so damn bad.
stay away from me.

i am irresponsible.
very bad.

26.12.06

a sunny day ahead.
a special day for a special one i love dearly.

HAPPIE 21st BIRTHDAY my dear!
i love u lots lots.

thou he's just very near me..
just had the feeling of blogging rigt now.

wasn't in time to wish him at 12am sharp.
reached about 12plus..
cos me & anna couldn't catch a cab.
waited so long at Pan Pacific Hotel just for a cab.

when i reached his house..
nicky, his doggie welcomed me..
really~~~
followed me all the way to dear's room..
staring at him..
seems like he's wanting to wish dear a very happy birthday.
lolx*
lame?

i hope dear will like the wallet i bought for him.
he just change to the wallet i have bought.
now we are using the same brand of wallet.
but obviously,
his wallet is much more nicer than me.

____________________________________________________________

i no longer care anymore.
too tired.
too painful.
getting numb.
no one knows except me, myself.
no one else will know anyway cos i will never let it out.

sadness

i hate lies.
i hate lies.
i hate lies.

i got very hurt when i knew someone whom i trust alot ever lied to me.

i hope dear will never ever lie to me.

i am so afraid to trust a person now.
i hate to cry.
but i am crying secretly numerous times these few days.
i suddenly felt so alone.
felt neglected somehow..

but i will never tell him.
cos i just wanted to be happy with him.

_______________________________________


i hate HER.
she is giving so much inconveniences.
HE is pushing HER to my daddy.
now my daddy's knee is bandaged.
all thanks to HER.
24hrs taking care of her.
SHE don like me at all.
better still.
i don welcome her.
no one understand me.
ppl think i am cruel..
not understanding..
but SHE is even much more worse than me.
nvr even realise that SHE, herself is so troublesome.
SHE had the best which i nvr even had before.
i am always number.2!
yet SHE still complains this & that.

i really hate to stay at home!
it's nvr peaceful with HER ard.

i felt so sad when i saw my daddy with a bandage on his knee again.
ARGH.
WTF WTF WTF!!!
pls ...
i am going berserk!
how long more is this gonna last?

things which i hope will last nvr seems to last..
things which i nvr hope to even exist at all seems to last forever like nvr-ending.
WTH?!
is this a joke or wat?
playing a fool with me?

Dear's house is like my 2nd home.
the only place which i felt comfortable..& the most peaceful-ness place ever.

i pity my dad somehow.

sad

i am so damn sad.
saw everything..
i read it.
too sad for words.
i realised that i am just a small fry.
only until now..
i realised i am just a nothing.

jun jie KOR..
sorry that u are always here to collect my tears these 4 years.
i wanted so much to let it out,
but i guess its a very small matter to him.
everytime i am sad..
i don't know whether i should tell him.
cos whenever i wanted to say something which i think its serious or important..
it seems like he's distracted by other things everytime.
i got so fed up..
i felt so alone after that.
i am really heart broken.
but no one knows.

i had to always be happy.
cos i don't want him to be angry.
but sometimes i can't control my emotions
.. .. .. .. .. .. ..

siannn

ytd was stuck in BAR.
i was expecting rach to be BARtender tonight..
and it turned out to be ME!
aiyayayaya*
still okie at first..
after the "George Benson" show..
wa piangz*
suddenly got crowd for awhile.
was making drinks here & there..
shiok ah~

i was talking to myself...
"walao..die la..sure extend to 11pm liao la..win already lor!"
but after work..
me, shihua & lingling went for supper at zion rd.
not bad la.
cos we all are hungry.

hopefully later sam won't call me..
cos if he calls me..
it means i will have to start work laterrrr.
god pls bless me.
i'm going to be at dear's house either later or tonight.
precisely why i am saying i don wish to work tonight.
anyway..
i wanna play my game liao.
cya-

smooth SUNday...

FRIDAY.
finish work at 11pm on friday.
went for supper with lyn & rach.
den crap around here & there.
had stingray, oh lua & our fav cockles!
finally can eat cockles.
lolx.
craving for that for so damn long.

SATURDAY.
then dear called me from his house.
i faster took cab home & change..
then rush to take cab to his house.
wahs.
tired.
once i reach his house..
after a few mins..
he fell aslp.
i continued watching tv till 4am then slp.
woke up in the afternoon den got plans going out.
in the end..
we met weizhong & prissy intending to watch movie.
but all either full or selling fast.
sians.
we went for dinner..
but the service is like shiit.
then we went to play pool.
but i dint play.
cos i DON'T KNOW how to play.
lolx.
i'm like a china gal rite?
after playing..
we went to suki sushi for supper.
haha*
then went home liao.
took NE line to outram..
then very sian to change train to lakeside.
so took cabbie lor.
wah seh***
the taxi driver very steady..
drove SUPER fast.
i guess i never sat in a taxi with the speed of 120km/h and ABOVE in my whole life!
the meter was already going to 140km/h!
wah..
i ask my dear to see the meter..
he was like shocked also.
lolx.
guess he has never encounter this speed in taxi before...
but very shiok lor.
from outram to lakeside...
within 15mins we already reached home.
fast hor?

SUNDAY.
went home today..
cos dear gotta book in before 8pm.
hmm.
slack & watch tv.
catch the LIVE sports ping pong between China & Singapore match.
SG lost.
sadden.
tot we mite win.
ended up...
nvr got the gold medal.
then met up with my mei, ling ling.
returned her the money..
den we chatted downstairs at my void deck.
haha.
i suddenly got craving for char kway teow.
so we shared a plate.
shiok.
went home after that..
watch tv again..
den dear called me.
thou i nvr expected him to call liao cos its already 12plus..
chatted awhile..
now i am back to uodate here.
but going to play auditionsea soon.

i'm going off now.
BYE.

TGIF

YES!
i can collect my IC back today.
finally!
i waited for almost 6months.
omg*
cant believe it that i waited so long.

1 more day to see my dear.
first thing i wake up later is to quickly have my breakfast..
have a shower..
get to the station to get my IC.
phew.
hopefully can really get it.
i don wanna drag it anymore.
going out without any identity really sucks.
no one really believes how old i am.
especially going to movies and restricted places like clubbing..

miss my finger just now...
hopefully won't get water blister.
its 12.35am liao..
pls let time flies like nobody's business.
luckily tml got work.
den can waste some of my time..
maybe going DXO with rach & lyn if i am not tired.
will waste even more time..
get home to slp..
THEN..
Saturday will come...
can see dear dear liao.
how naive & self-consoling..
haha ^-^
i like it then can liao.

recently keep playing auditionsea.
lolx.
cos very bored.
so play lor.
quite interesting la..
but sometimes play too long can seems kinda lame.
hmm..
if u are really bored..
that game can really be interesting :))

well..
i am to play that lame game for a short while before i turn in.

sadd-

haix.
thought dear will call me in the afternoon.
but i waited so long..
i knew we wouldn't be meeting today liao.
its already 7pm.
so late le.
nvm ba.
perhaps he's really busy with something.

i miss my dear dear lots.

tml working night shift.
even dear is free ..
i also not free liao.
no fate.
ytd slept at 4am.
cos dear called me at 2.50am after finishing his work stuffs.
we chat till 3.48am.
the time was still clearly in my mind cos i remembered looking at my hp after i hanged up.

hmm..
overall,
i am so so so..
disappointed.

a relaxing wednesday

today quite relaxed.
but abit tired.
ytd slept ard 3am+++
woke up at 10am.
seems like not enough slp like that.

left dear's house ard 11am..
den we went to have late breakfast..
took train to jurong and then we headed separate ways.

haix.
i think he will be quite broke again nxt month.
cannot liao.
really must control bits.
hopefully he will understand what i am trying to do for him.

finally can see my dear ytd..
FINALLY..
tml can see him again.
cos he's staying in tonight..coming back tml afternoon.
maybe he's calling me tonight.
i'm so looking forward to his call.

later going to my ah gong's house.
long time nvr go liao..
cos wkend always working..
today got off day..

hmm..
i was quite irritated today.
so frustrating*
yun kept pestering me here and there.
walao*
sibei sian la.
always wanna take my stuffs..
eat my fav food..choco..sweets.
cb*

cant stand her..
getting more spoilt.
haix.
bad bad bad.

i wanna stop here.
eyes so tired.
BYE-

fluffy nose.

i am having a very bad flu.
sneezing throughout the night during work in BAR.

so unlucky.
tml can finally see my dearest hubby..
but why let me catch such a bad flu at the wrong time?
so xinku***

i am even wearing a jacket with door closed..windows shutted..fans off.
at this rate..
i am only feeling comfortable.
not feeling hot at all.
oh man.
i am weird.
i guess normal ppl will be sweating like hell long ago.

YaYz!
tml dear fetching me to his house.
hooray!

i miss my dear so muchie.
finally can see him real soon.
yes yes yes!
i am mad liao.
its already 3.07am
i am still wide awake.
happy thoughts*

i so wanna hug my dear tightly...
not letting go forever.
dear, i love u.
miss u so muchie these past few days.
goodnight baby.
so wanna see u asap.

enjoyable night

wahs..
ytd reach home at 4am.
finished work at 11pm.
i finish my BAR closing ard 1055..

HAHA*
Sam was OFF ytd.
so damn happie not seeing him.

me, lyn, weibin kor & patrick kor ate supper..
me & lyn went makansutra bought..
stingray, or luah, char kway teow, chicken wings.
mi & lyn treated them.
cos they always treated us too.

i thought i will leave ard 2plus at most..
but we chat & chat..
almost dragging the topic to ghosts.
scary..
lyn saw the light flickering in the restaurant.
seems eerie right?
den we realise we din blow out the candle light.
walao.
ytd was a simply **chocolicious** day.
we had ice blended chocolate all night.
lolx.

the night was quite fun.
seldom had a day like that when we can chat like nobody's business.

chatting halfway..
patrick's thai gf called him.
lolx.
he suddenly sound so gentle.
we all talking about our relationship stuffs.

in the end we shared cabbie.
i went off first cos i stayed the nearest from esplanade..

i was thinking..
WHEN CAN I GET MY IC BACK?
its almost 6months.
seems like they keep dragging & dragging..
so irritating.

wanted to tell dear..
but everytime we are on the phone..
he seems so distracted elsewhere with his mates.
thou i did say it out..
he din make any comments.
i guess he din pay much attention..
forget it then.
maybe he just ain't interested at all.
nvm ba.

anyway..
tml night can see dear liao.
waited for a week.
the day is coming.

boring sunday.

sian sian sian.
working tonight.
how i wish i can slp all day.

i am so broke now.
wanna hang out with jie meis also cannot..

i miss siew choo, huihui & sandy so much.
so long nvr take pics with them.
after 16th dec..
siew choo should be quite free?
haha.
will ask her out liao.
photo taking session again soon.

today got higher possibilities of doing BAR.
sean not working today.
-____-"
just sms mon mon..
she also not working tonight.
fcuk la.
no possibilties liao la.
i sure kana BAR.
dead.
worse still...
gotta see Sam's idiotic face.
thats not worse.
its his ATTITUDE that puts me off.

fcuk it fcuk it fcuk it.
luckily still have rach & lyn.

don say liao.
now gonna have my shower.

mite update tonight if possible.
BYE.

bad stuffs.

today brought ling & shihua to interview..
that fcuking sam kept giving attitude.
this type of manager also have..
cant believe if ppl get to know this..
shame on vm.
bad attitude manager.
never seen such person.
HE DOESN'T EVEN FIT TO BE AN ASSISTANT MANAGER IN ANYWHERE.
not to mention being a manager.
also acting like a big boss when he's not.
thick-skinned.
bossy.
proud.
pervert.
biased.
loves taking gals advantage.
lazy bum.
big bully.

i hate sam!
i hate sam!
i hate sam!
fcuk him off!
nbcb!
i am never happie working there eva since he started being the assistant manager.
scoldings..scoldings..& more scoldings are all what i have got.
biased chap.
i don wanna work till 1am for him anymore.
let him die himself.
shiit him la.

haix.
earlier on..
dear called.
bad bad bad.
he told me he can only come back on thurs evening.
sad like hell lor.
but what to do..
NOTHING - -
waiting again.
i guess thats a woman's job to really wait for their man.
oh damn.
i counting down for nth liao.
not 3days.
is 5 days.
seems like time is rewinding ar?
omg*
sadden.
thurs leh!
so long lor.
i guess this is the longest period of us not seeing each other?

dear dear so bad.
he made me miss him so muchie.

waiting for someone u love can be a real torturing procedure!

watch "colic" today..
not a bad movie thou.
i kinda enjoyed it.
went tiong market again for dinner.
had century egg porridge.
shared a bowl of "lor mee" with my dad.
had a shower..
watched tv all the way..
until dear called me at 10pm.
hmm.. today's chat slightly shorter.
only last 45mins thou i wish it can last longer.
but nvm ba.
i must understand.
my hubby is tired.
i shouldn't bother him liao.
let him have a good rest.

i miss him.
i miss him.
i really really miss him.
but i can do nothing at all..
except waiting..waiting..&..waiting.
i wait until very xinku le.
i really don't know what to do without him.
hopefully time can pass real fast these few days.
i cant take it anymore.
dear..
faster come back.
i really really miss u.

i hate myself.
why cant i control my own feelings?

will he miss me as much as i miss him?
will he love me as much as i love him?
i hope we are equal.
but nvm.
as long as he don't leave me.
its enough.

relaxation..i love it`

today whole day at home.
except going tiong market for dinner with papa.
had my fav fried sotong mee.
*yummy yummy*
shiok lor.
luckily we came earlier.
long queue after that!
woosh.

had quite a long chat with my hubby earlier now.
hmm..
ard 1hr bahs..
really enjoyed it.
idiot la..
time just passed by like that.
everytime like that de..
sad.
i so wanna see my dear dear.
miss him lots.
5 more fcuking days!
endure arR~!

tml watching a thai movie with papa.
ghostly film "colic"
we love catching thai shows.
especially spiritual kinds.
obviously..
we are like father like daughter.
we are TVB dramas addicts..
those hard-core type.
lolx.

okie la.
i go slp now.
its 2.03am.
late enough?
i need my slp now..
before my pimples start popping out.
i want a stop to it!

at ease now..

hmm..
dear just gave me a call earlier on.
i miss his voice.
i so wanna hug him.
i know dear love me.
i knew.
i shouldn't have think so much.
he's just tired.
thats all.
i love u dear.

i so not feeling well.
body feel so hot.
gonna slp soon.
tml gonna call workplace..
need to rest at home.
cant tahan le.
my body feel like burning..
walao.
sweating like hell even thou the fan is facing me.
guess its cos of the weather bah.
well,
nothin much to add on le.
goodnight.

haix.haix.haix

:'( :'( :'(
i so love-sick now.
wonndddeeerrrinng..........................
will he think of me & miss me?
i really love him so much.
so so so miss him.
i din tell anyone except my blog.
so love-sick till i din even eat & talk much at home.

i feel so weird these few days.
cant really sense his love anymore.
he seems like he's sick of me liao.

sad larhs..
dear can only come back on next tuesday.
hmm..
he called me ytd during my briefing..
asking whether we can meet tonight.
i was happie la..
cos i din feel like going home ytd also.
he waited for me to finish work.
i so appreciate it.
so spent the night with him lors.
but he seems so sian..
slept right away after having his BK meal.

today Sam on MC.
so happie like shiit.
don even feel like seeing him at all.
he just simply spoils my day.
at least derek is still okay.
no attitude problem.
i was so alone.
derek sent sandie to viet lang.
walao.
sian-sation.
luckily time still passed quite fast.
folded some napkins,
wipe glass door.
haha.
read the newspaper :))
lolx.
so tired lor.
then went for facial after work.
wahs..my face so red.
like kanasai like that.
hopefully can get better when dear come back.

P.S: i miss & love u so much that not even words can describe how i feel.

monday.blues

thinking of my hubby..
thinking that i can only get to see him on saturday if i'm not wrong.
this weekend will be like shit?
cos i'm working night shift on sunday.
no choice la.
i wanna earn more if possible.
don wanna regret when my cheque comes.
so its counting down 5 long days before i can see my dearest hubby.

hmm..
as usual,
i came back home today at ard 6am plus..
obviously from his house.
supposingly meeting him yesterday afternoon as planned.
but on sat..
i finish work at 11pm..
den went to MAKANSUTRA with rachael..
meeting lynette there.
we ate crayfish, oysters & gon gon.
not bad la.
but crayfish only so-so.
i think Lau Pa Sat crayfish taste better anyways.
blah~~~

me & rachael took cabby home after that.
while i was in cab..
received a call from a unfamiliar number..
should be dear calling me from frens hp.
yupp.
i was right.
he can go home liao.
so we met up lor.
i went home to change & have a quick shower..
den went downstairs to wait for his cabby to fetch me.
its ard 1.30am liao.
diao~
in the end, he reached at 1.50am.
alamak.
i should have really enjoyed my shower instead of rushing here & there for no reason.

yays.
tonight only finish at 10pm.
cos tml morn shift.
hopefully i won't be too tired.
okie la.
shall end here right now.
gotta get ready for work soon.
BYE.

hmm..chatty night.

i was supposed to finish work at 1am.
was working halfway then receive anand's sms.
asking me whether wanna meet up later.
hmm..
i was fine with it.
but gotta wait till i finish work at 1am.
ok lor..
so i continue to do work..
blah blah blah^^^
work goes on.
ard 11pm..
KS said i can finish work liao.
wow.
i was so happy lor.
cos i was so sian to finish work at 1am.
then i sms anand to meet up earlier.
we arranged to meet at a bus stop at 12.15am.
but in the end..
we both met up in wrong places.
he waited at my house bus stop.
i went to his house bus stop.
so funny lor.
nvm.
he came up to find me again.
den we took cab to valerie house void deck to wait for her.
after that we order MAC delivery.
cos me & val got craving for MAC.
i was hungry also.
earlier on the staff food was like KNS lor.
so i din eat much.
we were eating and chatting along..
quite sometime nvr meet up liao.
since aug?
hmm..
we talk craps & suddenly remembered some sad moments.
chat till ard 4am..
i was quite tired from work also..
den i wanted to use the toilet.
so i took cabby home.
within 10mins ..
i am HOME.

remove my contact lens..
remove my make-up..
had a freaking quick shower.
was on my comfy bed liao.
but cant get to slp leh..
dono why..
i am really tired lor.
so thats why i am still here to blog.
ok la.
already 5am liao.
i better try to push myself to dreamland.
if not i am sure gonna slp till 2-3pm plus...
still gotta work night shift.
well.
i am done with typing.
enough-

its a friday.

today is my daddy's birthday.
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY LAO DOU!!

fast arh..last friday was my birthday.
tonight gonna finish work at 1am.
hopefully time will pass very fast for me later.
sad..
all my gals finishing at 11pm.
i am the only gal to finish at 1am.
fcuk la.
then tml i finish at 11pm..
most of my gals finishing at 1am.
so idiotic.
walao.
bad organisation.
no fate la i should say.

today woke up quite late.
dear called at 12.10pm just now.
i was still slping.
but luckily i managed to pickup the phone.
so happie that dear called me!
i so so so miss HIM!
sian la.
only can wait till sunday then can see him.
nvm de..
sunday will come fast right..
its kinda self-consoling.
its ok.
i like it then can le.

anyway,
i should stop here.
i gotta get changed for work.
it will be a long shag night for ppl who is working night shift.
but it will be a relaxing night for couples together & ppl who is slacking at home.

CIAOz.

enjoyable times..

just came back home today.
rested 2days at dear's house.
was calling him on monday during my breaktime.
but his mum said he's not in.
i was wondering why..
maybe he's slacking ard or wat.
after 30mins..
i saw him walking outside my workplace at 9pm.
so surprised*
poor thing..gotta wait 2hrs before i can finish work.
so i carry on working..den ard 10pm..
OMG*
i saw him carrying quite a big pack of food..
yoshinoya~~
yummy.
i was so hungry at hat moment cos i din eat much before i start work.

kevin bought 20bucks worth of satays..
but i only get to eat 1stick.
pathetic wors..
that day..
prin, rach, lyn, me & mon mon got scolding from sam for just trival matters.
so angry u know..
serves him right ar!
he was doing closing for BAR & REST that day.
aiya sian la..
later working night..
till sat..
still duno whether got meet my hubby on sat night.
next week gotta chiong work!
i wanna buy my mp3 player!
desperate liao la.
cant survive with music*
rock on*

overall..
just wanna say..
i enjoyed myself with dear the last 2days. [tue-wed]

its more than enough le..

finally back to update.
dear was so tired on fri..
but he still accompany me to have dinner on my bdae.
went his house after that.
just came back today morning.

later working night..
will still go his house after work.
guess will come back on wed night or thurs morn.

hmm.
think i slp too much.
abit tired again.
haix.
i got stomach ache again.
yest also like that.
wat happen arh?
sucks la.

anyway..
nothin much to add on for now.
gotta go wash up and go work soon.
ciaoz.

Happie Birthday to ME~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

heavy rain now..
just came back from work..
today breakfast quite shiok.
MACmuffin meal.
Weibin's Treat! (specially for my bdae)
so nice of him!

clock struck 3pm.
FINISH WORK!
went window shopping with princess near funan.
talking bout princess..
today she gave mi a surprise.
i was in the BAR talking to weibin..
den she suddenly came to the BAR saying that she need my help.
so i went to the restaurant.
when i reach the counter..
OMG*
i saw an ice-cream with a candle!
so touched!
my tears flowed.

i'm now stuck at home waiting for my hubby to call me.
having dinner tonight.
but still no idea what to have.
hmm.
i wanna slp awhile.
so slpy with this gloomy weather.
shiok like hell.
bye.

rainy day -

raining heavily now..
weather so nice..
bed so comfy..

but still gotta work later.
abit sian la.
but still manageable.

woohoo*
tml is my birthday liao.
alamak.
but ..
i gotta work morning shift.
lucky only until 3pm.
gotta go home rest awhile den wait for dear.
having dinner with him.

guess i wun be able to update these few days.
will be at my hubby's house tonight & tml..
hmm..
so now i'm gonna say,

CYA!

a day just passed..

today quite tired..
thou i finish work at 10..
but my body seems like wanna die like that..
hmm..
not BAR today..
i'm with mon mon at the ALFresco.

ah ha!
counting down 2days to my bdae!
tml die die must go facial appointment after work.
i have been dragging it since few wks ago.
now my skin sucks liao la.
i nvr take care properly lor..
eek*
so sad!
just suddenly pop out alot within these few days.
it was like almost perfect few wks ago.
can't believe it!

hmm..
i miss my hubby lots.
so wanna hug him.

well..
i have to stop here.
i'm working morning shift tml!
nitex*

love sick.

i realised..
i am love-sick.
wth?!
i feel so sian when dear's not with me.
everything seems so bored to me.

hmm..
4 more days to my birthday!
YaYz!
but dear can only meet me at night..
by then its already gonna be over soon.
thinking of it..
as long as he's willing to stay by my side..
as long as he loves me..
its okie with it.
at night then at night lor..
better than nothing.

today slp from 5-9pm after i reach home from work.
so tired lor.
cos spent my wkend with dear & came back on monday early morning.
was chionging my "Seven Sisters" dvd show.
so exciting liao.
its coming to an end soon.

well..i hope everything is fine now.
i really really hope so.
if not i will sure breakdown.

anyway..just uploaded some of my pics with dear =))













he squashed my nose!













my hubby has got a nice smile.















a surprise kiss*














his smile is so cute!~

My Favourite!! Ah Fat the GARFIELD! so freaking FAT*

i should learn to be contented.

haix.
someone told me something which made me feel kinda occupied.
thou i should not believe it..
but somehow..
i'm still being bothered.
i hope i'm thinking too much.

earlier on at viamar..
vm staffs sang us a birthday song for nov babies.
rachael,princess,me & weibin sat on the sofa then they start singing..
hmm..
my wish to let have dear's accompany.
thats all.

i was so tired...
very shag at work.
lucky the day was over.
its a Saturday now.
tml afternoon meeting dear..
will be spending the night at his house.
well..
tml gotta go facial appointment..
den come back home do floor cleaning.
gotta rush abit..
cos finish cleaning gotta wash up myself again before meeting dear.

i must stop here.
eyes not obeying me anymore.
sweety nite.
i wanna have sweety dreams!!~

i saw the rainbow..

he wanted me back..

there's some reasons behind it.

i'm happie.

i'm very happie.

i'm very very happie.

thats all.

nth else to add on for now i suppose..

nitex.

the world has come to an end.

he doesn't want me anymore.
speechless*

i'm dead.

i'm back again..

hmm.
few days never update..
was at my dear's house from fri-sun.
but i left house with dear..
i went home on monday early morning.
he went back to work of cos...

nvr seen him since monday morning.
guess will be seeing him on sat night.
so miss him lor.

something crop up..
but i cant say it here.
i believe i'll be fine.
both of us will be fine too.
Peace*

anyway..
i'm so sick of working in via mar le..
i'm stuck in the damn bloody freaking BAR for so long..
almost 2 months already..
can u believe that anot?
walao*
i am going nuts.
needless to say..
i'm still doing BAR service yesterday & today lor..

haix..
just realised my right eye is slightly swollen.
just felt the pain when i rubbed my eye.
argh.
maybe i see wrong "things"..
already 3am plus le..
i'm slping now.
so so so tired.

P.S: Dear, I Love U. I Fear Nothing. Not Even Death. The Only Fear I Have Is Losing You. You Are Someone I Love Dearly. Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You. Nothing..& i mean really NOTHING. Death is just a 2nd option in my life. Being With You Is The Right & Final Decision I Have Ever Made.

haixx..

i thought i will be finishing work at 11pm today.
but..
Sam extended me till 1am.
he made that stupid decision ytd.
walao.
but thinking of it..
i can take cab to dear's house.
but i'm super tired...
everytime like that lor..
everytime he scheduled me to finish at 1am..
everytime i will sure be working in BAR.
there's lotsa EVERYTIME.
why?!!

was browsing and clearing my com's space..
happened to see my own pic taken last year.
so funny..
still having long hair..
i miss my long long hair.
but i know it will take ages to grow it back to the length in my sec sch times.
nvm.
i just have to wait.
my old pics below*
















me & joanne













[ our Students' Council Days// 2004 ]

josephine - me - yanling - candy

the old pic of me taken during my stay in Hongkong.

_________________________________________________________________

hmm. i guess i won't be updating for 2-3days..cos i will be spending my weekend with dear. my precious junhao will be my top priority.

happie for nothing...

i was actually stationed to do service in the ALFRESCO.
during the briefing..
i was praying not to get BAR.
den Sam told me to cover BAR until 7pm.
thats the timing Sean will be reaching.
den suddenly Sam changed his mind.
i will do BAR all the way.
my mind was blank.
i was swearing in my mind..
WALAO!..NBCB la!
sucks lor.
already said i will be doing ALF..
how come just change like that!?
then wats the deployment for?
forget it.
lucky it wasnt busy today.
but i felt so bored being stuck in the BAR.
no one with me except Sam.
SIAN leh..

who really knows how i feel?

at least doing service still can talk around here and there.
also have more freedom.

ok lah.
stopping here liao.
gotta wash my face now.
cos i'm calling my hubby soon.
gdnitex-

sian-sation

argh.
bored like siao.
how i wish i have already rented my TVB show.
if not i will so engrossed with my tv.
wun be seeing dear for 2days.
dear supposed to be working today.
but woke up late...
alamak.

later working night shift again..
so fast leh.
nvr work since last fri.
today is thurs liao.
5days never work.
suddenly gotta go back work..
i seem so dead.
i so wanna skip work and stay at home slack.
but i know i cant.
I WANNA EARN MONEY!
if not i will sure regret when my cheque comes.
no choice lor.
if i earn extras..
at least me and dear will not be so broke during the month-end.

on mask now.
pimples start popping out since last wk.
so sad.
almost 1 month never go facial.
elaine also sms me to remind me for facial.
so busy leh.
either work or acc dear.

haix..
workin in bout 3hrs time.
really sian leh!
guess i'm now more to doing floor service.
started doing floor since last wk.
Sam finally changed my station duty.
no more doing BAR drinks for now i guess?
i think i really love servicing customers.
everytime the customers smile at me..
i have a satisfaction feeling that i have given them good service.
guess even if i change jobs,
it will still be F & B line.
thats Yvonne.