1 litre of tears

i hate this..
jus half an hour ago..
i was so happy..
and now i received the 2nd worse news in my entire life.
the 1st traumatic news in my life was when i was 11 yrs when my beloved mummy passed away.
i did not get a chance to see her for the last time as i went back to sch to collect my results.
& now..
he's someone who loves me more than anyone else do.
now that he's gone..
i lost him.
again,
i nvr got any chance to see him for the last time.
why this happen on me again!
i took so much time to let go of my mum..
now that i have to go thru all this all over again.
i hate this feeling.

i just received news from kenji..
other than my mum & dad..
he is someone whom i love dearly for all my life..
he passed away.
i so wish i can fly to japan now..
but with my condition like that,
doc doesnt allow me to fly over..
if not my health will be in danger.
its that serious.

big feast, reveals of baby's present

had a full dim-sum buffet today..
slack awhile at vivo..
then went back home..
my bro-in-law drove us to bukit merah central..
baby & me went for a haircut..

then had dinner at my house area..
went up my house slack awhile again..
after that baby left..
tml work again.

abit sianx.
enjoy alot outside..
then suddenly next day need to work..
but no choice..
no work=no money~

been so long since i enjoyed days like this..
11 days more to my bdae le!
yes!
so i have 1 more day to enjoy next month...
i still cannot guess baby's secret present!
argh*
damn.
he hide it quite well..
opps.
or should i say very well!?

ok.
time for me to reveal my present for baby's bdae!
tada~~~
ans:
1. seiko watch (which costs me a big big bomb)..
2. converse jersey..
3. black collared shirt..

hahaha..
nvm.
though i'm damn broke now.
at least i'm happy..

out the whole day..
wanna have my rest now..
my turn to slack infront of the tv..
tvb drama*

baby's birthday, sadden, regreted, tears flowed

left vl at about 6pm on monday..
went to JB to meet baby.
we met at the custom area.
carried the cake & his presents from my house all e way to JB..
omg*

celebrated baby's bday ytd..
was with him for the whole 24 hrs.
had steamboat at night with his cousin & friends..
had BBQ with his sis the next afternoon.
went back to his house to slack awhile..
watch tv..
then went back SG.

supposed to upload pics..
but.....
by accident,
the pics were deleted.
so so so sad.
there's no way anymore.
regreted.
lost the pics of e cake..
lost the pics of baby & me with the cake.
haix.
only once a year!
how can it happen on me?
i'm damn useless.

had been quite awhile since we took pics..
& now..
all gone.
tears flowed.

dammit!

tml will be having lunch with my sis, bro-in-law, daddy & my niece rachel..
baby will be joining too.
main purpose of the meal was actually celebrating baby's & my birthday..
also my sis & dad's birthday.
cos all our birthday are near each other.
considered a gathering.
most probably goin for a haircut after the meal.

ok.
no mood to go on le.
i can only blame myself..
stupid fingers.

baby's birthday

in less than 5hrs time..
its gonna be baby's birthday!
wee*

but poor me..
my hands are gonna be full with my own bag..
his presents..
his cake.
argh.

ok.
i'm gonna get myself prepared.
cya!

busy week.

had an event last week.
reader digest held a function at The Hall.
mark lee was here also.
took care of e VIPs..
of cos..
he was considered one of them.

took a pic with him too.
he's very humorous..
really!
nice chatting with him~

well..
apologised due to my MIA..
ok.
i was very very busy handling enquiries..
besides that..
i was going crazy over the 1300pax on sunday for APAA event.
so squeezieeeeeeeeeeeeee!
cant even walk about..
it made me so so so tired till i had no energy to go online & update here until today.
today had a busy day too.
tml got event again.
i am gonna slp real soon.
in less than 15 mins time.

having a runny nose..
bad sore throat..
so afraid of losing my voice.
haix.
my voice already started tuning to another channel.
cough is coming up to welcome me..
oh manx!

everytime i lose my voice & suffered a bad throat..
it spells trouble.
that means i'm gonna get a high fever soon.
this happens once or twice in a year for me w/o fail.
i hate that.
today..
i forced myself to drink lotsa PLAIN WATER.
i dint take any cold drinks at all.
no ice lemon tea..
no coke..
not even hot coffee as its very heaty.

i almost couldnt resist the temptation of having hot coffee.
cos the weather was jus too chilly..
but..
i did it!
i drink warm water instead.
thou my mind is still thinking whether...
u know u know.

i nvr had a day w/o coffee ever since i was being transferred to VL.
coffee is a must for me.
yet..
i have to force myself not to have even a sip for these few days..
see how it goes..

ok.
i wanna slp now.
tml is a full day for me.
alright..

should be updating lesser due to my schedule.

goodnight :)

baby's birthday is coming soon.
busy planning & getting his birthday stuffs ready.
that was almost enough to kill me.
but i am most willing to..
who ask me to love him..
true..
when it comes to love..
i'm totally blind.
lolx.

monday blues

wah.
nvr work oso feel tired.
suppose to acc baby to collect his work permit.
but raining.
so baby went alone.
then come my hse to wake me up.
had jap food for lunch.
did some changes to his present.
hee*
i cant say it now.

jeremy called me jus now.
but too bad..
baby went back home le.
nxt time ba.

just finish my cleaning..
wah.
sweating like ....
vacuum & mopping almost cost me my life.
gonna have my shower now.

tml work split le.
sianx.

ok.
will stop here.
i'll be busy later.
designing my present for baby.
hee*

so sianx today.
haix.
maybe i'm having my monday blues..
eek~

rach's bday, big bomb

celebrated rachel's birthday early afternoon.
she's so mischievious now!
naughty!
lolx*
but awhile..
she got used to us & felt more comfy..
still afraid of strangers..
cos we nvr seen her for months.


her chicken head.


the niece & auntie yvonne


lotsa peace*


my bro-in-law, rach, me, my sis


daddy, rach, me, baby adam _she just cant have 1 more sec of patience..


daddy doesnt know he's inside too. rach is too quick for e cam..again..

bought my thumbdrive @ $19.80 already!
oh yes!
finally..

collected baby's present..
wahs..
its a big big bomb..
big hint.
spent more than 500++ for just 1 present.
which means i have a total of 3 presents for him.

i'm so gonna scrimp & save.
thou my pay is gonna be in soon.
but i have to pay off credit card which is used to pay for the priority present.
now u see..
see how much i love him?
my hard-earned money automatically goes to him willingly..

thats why ppl say love is blind.
& i agreed so.
well..
its true.
depends on how much u love your partner.

anyway..
shall be meeting up with baby again tml morn to collect his WP card.
then have lunch..
after that we will be heading separate ways.
he's goin home & i'm goin VL for meeting.

after that..
i will have to shop for my baby's last present.
hopefully can settle his stuffs by tml.
so i need not worry so much except for the cake.
i will worry about the cake next wk..

ok.
nth much to update for now.
so hot..
gonna have my shower!

happie happie 3rd birthday!

HAPPIE HAPPIE 3rd BIRTHDAY RACHEL aka QIQI!

i so so so love my one & only niece!

i am now charging my digital cam batt!
i must take pic wif her tml~
must must must!

she loves taking pic too~

i am so excited to see her tml!
omg!
i jus cant wait anymore!
i was thinking whether she still can rmb my baby adam when she sees him tml.

she got along very well with him during the zoo trip.
she even held adam's hand & walked ard.
i'm not jealous of them of cos.
but i'm jealous cos she got new friend then don wan her one & only auntie.
well..
the way she addressed baby as "korkor"..
very cute!
even when she call me "ah yi" also not so cute.
argh -____-"

ok.
thats bout it for now.
shall be back soon to update pics.
stay tuned.

a gonna-be hectic saturday

tml will be a hectic saturday for me.
lotsa stuffs to follow up.
guess 80% of my time will be inside the room.
omgness*
i sure need some slp at 3pm.
hopefully..

if not i will jus take a short nap in the room.
well..
had a meeting at 4 today..
crushed my beauty slp.

thats why i was so steam-ed the whole evening.
dinner wasnt so bad.
managed to hit my worse target.
had a busy afternoon...

ok.
i shud jump to bed now.
if not i'm so gonna be dead tml.

heavy eyebags..
i'm already a panda..

but..
i'm still lookin forward to my niece bdae..
jus endure 1 more day & its my off day liao!
wee*

tml need to withdraw money for her big angbao.

i really need to get a thumbdrive soon.
cant survive without it.
technology world.
-_-"

ok.
ending here.
enuff of craps.

nitex.

upload pics, rachel's bdae

got some pics from shela's cam.
uploaded finally..


Miss Yvonne.


my all-time hardworking part-timer staff, teppy & me.
guess where she's from? philipines or vietnam?
the correct ans is vietnam.
cos none of my guests believed she's a vietnamese.


my another all-time hardworking part-timer, tien hon & me.
need not say..he's a pure sg'rean ok!
well..
see how short i am?!
idiot!
he made me feel like i'm a short-ie.


juan, shela, me, my baby adam, bikey, tien hon, joshi (see his fat thighs?)


another pic of us.


big feast session.
thinkin of my jacket..
i dirtied my converse jacket on that day! :(


nancy & des - my baby adam & me :)


the cute lil kitten we saw..
the malay guy carried him up..
so we took e pic.
scary eyes.
of cos..
when i said "him"..
obviously i noe this is a male kitten.

as for now..

i'm still still still trying to get used to marketing!
oh manx*
not very hard..
but definitely not very easy either!

today woke up at 7am.
had my fav fishball noodles for breakfast.
den happily took bus to work.
reach 8.30am exactly.
i was lucky..
bus came at the right time.
or else..
i might have just reached on the dot.

thanks baby..
for agreeing to attend rachel's bdae.

no presents for her.
only a big angbao.
anyway..
my sis lor!
she say adam nvr come also nvm.
as long as angbao come den can liao.
walao.
she was laughing still.
a small lil hole in my pocket.
i love her so much..
so its ok.
its a once-a-year celebration.
so so so long nvr see my niece due to heavy workload.

luckily i can take PH on sun.
if not i'm gonna miss e celebration.

i love baby to bits.
i pls pls pls so muchie..
den he agreed de...
e only reason he agreed cos..
i'm his gal..
& partly cos its my sis's daughter.
wee*
so happie!

tml workin 12-S end.
still ok la.
can slp awhile.
hope so.

i'm so eager to close my very first deal.
still trying to get the hang of it.

YVONNE HO!
加油！
U CAN DO IT!

yes..
i'm sure i can do it too.
once i close my first deal..
i will sure have more confidence to move on.
right at this moment..
i'm still afraid that i'll screw up.
after all..
i'm still a baby noob.
give me some time!
argh*
gambatte!

i'm still tryin to keep myself awake..
i wanna watch channel 8 at 2am.
ghostly drama!
hee*
even if i will let out steammmm tml..
i wun regret.
i wanna watch!

still waitin for baby to reach home.

黄成华宝贝。。
何淑贤真的很爱你！

interesting kitty videos

so loving~



to ppl who have cats at home & surprisely facing a high water bill prob..
better check it out!
maybe your cat does this at home!



i was like omg-ness!
i cant believe it..



two-faced kitten.

enjoy those videos!
it may brighten ur moody day..

feverish, complicated, misses, backstabbers

feeling feverish today..
maybe due to lack of rest for a long long time.

isn't a blog for us to let out our feelings?
why is there so many complicated problems?
haix.
poor rach.

i shud consider to make my blog private...
this is best for everyone i guess.

i'm losing my happiness.

don understand why ppl choose to believe those who cant be trusted?
ppl who really put effort are not even known & ended up useless.
jus wanna feel appreciated.

RACH darling..
i miss u lor..
w/o u inside e room..
seems like short of sth..
even now juan nvr cracks jokes liao..
no more tummy-pain of laughs!
i miss those days..
how i wish u're still ard..

those olden days are gone forever.
freedom & happiness became extinct.
now..
its only stress..
careful..very very careful of backstabbers.
how i wish i can go back to june..

she has so many motives.
too bad i just cant guess it out.
too clever for me..

well..
everything will eventually comes to an end.

my existence will slowly be faded in time to come.
trust me.

for my bestie..siew

to my bestie,
siew..
don be upset.
i was once like u before.
someone told me this before..
"wat is meant to be yours will be yours no matter wat"

u must pluck up ur courage to find your own happiness.
& nvr tell urself that u don dare to do it.
its impossible that no one loves u..
there must be somebody..
its jus that u dono.

single & being attached has both advantages & disadvantages.
when u're single,
u tot of being attached.
reasons: wanna hav someone who loves & shower concern to u.
when u're attached,
u tot of being single.
reasons: squabbles can made one very tired & loss of concentration in work & life.

therefore..
let it be natural..
don worrie that u'll be a old maid.

we are still so young ok!
u've plenty of time to choose among so many guys.

i often felt insecured of this & that.
but realised that its useless.
cos it simply make ur life worse.

lesser thinking = lesser worries + lesser tears + MORE happiness
unneccessary thinking = more worries + loss of concentration + more tears + LESS happiness

sometimes,
if u feel like crying out loud..
pls go ahead.
crying out really makes one feel lots better.

i'll be always be there for u.
i'm ur guardian angel.
someone whom u seldom see..
maybe once a year..perhaps once in every few years.
but i'm always secretively viewing ur blog.
jus that u dono all this.

i'm very busy in work these year due to some changes in job scope.
but i'll still make out some time to go online.

meanwhile..
always believe what ur heart tells u so.
believe in ur intuition.

nvr doubt urself for u may lose ur way of life.

loves,
von

balancing on a thin line..

haiss..
no mood nowadays..
dono why also..
busy till no time to eat..

today was so high..
busy busy busy~
i become so high replyin enquires..
somemore we are both newbies..
we are noobs!

walao..
i cant imagine it.
somemore..
i'm still tryin to get used to it.
haix.

damn tired.
tml workin 9-6..
but i'm sure i cant escape..
sure have to end later.
nvm.
shall be waitin for baby to finish work at 7.30pm..
den have dinner..
meanwhile can do my work.

i'm gonna lost my balance.
so stressed up balancing with marketing & operations.
aiyoyo!

i am trying so hard now!!
god bless...

fakeness, supper, marketing, confused

haix.
everything is just so fake now.
nobody can see.
sadden.

jus reach home.
has supper with simon & juan.
was so hungry jus now!
luckily managed to catch my last bus..
thank god that i don need to spend my money on cabbies.

i'm now into marketing..
more & more marketing.

the "black" words are so sarcastic..
spoiled my mood.
aiya..
jus cant stand fakeness.
everything is so different & 101% fake after they left.

nvm.
jus don wait till i bomb.
i'm still enduring until my limits are over.

meanwhile..
i still love my staffs.
thanks to rose & shela..
they bought curry puffs for me..
but i couldnt eat it.
cos i was jus too full after the staff meals.
i'm terribly sorry gals.
next time ok!?
loves <333

ok.
i better slp now.
tml whole day at work.
sianx.
i'm still trying to get used to marketing.
very chim for me at this moment..
quoting & all gives me a big headache.
i should be able to handle it soon i guess..
cos i jus love meeting different ppl..

i'm so confused now.
well..
everything is jus simply confusing! :S

nites~

secret.

tired. tired. tired.

i'm so upset.
but i cant say it out.
its a secret.

all i can say is..
its not cos of my relationship.
totally not.

only can tell rach darling..
guess she's e one who knows me best.
oh well.
but she's leaving tml.
its her last day.

i still cant see her blog!
oh god.
she better change the skin soon.
damn.

nvm.
i knew we will still meet when there's chance :)
right darling?!

振作起来！

田野。。
别伤心。。
我都知道你那里发生什么事了。。
你怎么每次什么都瞒着我！
还好nic告诉我！
怪不得你跟我说话的时候，
我就感觉很不对劲！

你还强忍着。。
勉强自己装作很开心！
你这样让我更不开心！

我在外面。。
什么都帮不上忙。。
这次还好有nic陪着你。。

nic!
thkq u so much!

这种女人不要也罢了！
真没良心。
她根本都不会珍惜你对她爱好意！
你人很好。。
一定会找到一个更好更好的人！
所以我求你不要再伤心了。。

我认识你快要21年了。。
你的性格。。
我比你的女朋友还要清楚！

你真的需要哭出来的话。。
nic就在你身边。。
他肯定会借你躺一躺的。。
你就安安心心大哭一场！
你啊！
别太大男人了！
谁说男人就不能哭！
伤心就哭嘛！
每次都忍忍忍。。
到最后，只会伤到你自己。。
让你自己更是难受！

武内幸 田野！
拜托拜托！
别绝食了啦！

nic..
我全靠你了！
你这次要帮帮我噢！
一定要让田野吃些东西才行！
每天都有刻薄训练。。
不吃东西的话，
他会垮下来的！

now i hope kenji is gonna brace himself up asap.
poor boy..
god bless kenji..
he's such a nice nice soul.

lazy-ness

guess wat..
i slept at 2plus ytd..
but woke up at 4plus in e afternoon.
imagine how tired i am?

watch tv..
eat..
nth else to do..

tml split shift le..
thinkin that i hav to work till closin on sat..
den start work e nxt day at 7am..
i am so worried that i cant wake up e following day.
oh damn.

worse thing is..
juan ask me to give her morning call..
all depending on me.
stressssss.

i hate e weather now..
made me feel so slpy..
made my mood so dampened.
made me so SIANxxxxx.

argh.
ok.
nvm.
i will watch movie later.
i mean not goin out.
but stayin home.
watching movie at my com.

i'm a 101% certified piggie today.
田野 said so..

oh well.
i don mind since its only 1 day which i can slp like nobody's business.
cos this coming sun will be a totally different day from today.

bye guys.

sianx.sianx.siannnnnxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

enjoying my ice cold coffee~