sianx.

tomorrow will be starting full-time liao.
haix.
actually don't know i'm happy or sad..
mixed feelings ba..

will be fetching my dear tonight..
then we go for supper..

today i woke up with an empty mind.
cant think of anything.
slept for so many hours..
yet i am still yawning here & there.
i'm just a piggy.

oh well.
enough.

tasks completed.

bought my black blouse & new pants today.
everything cost less than just 50bucks!

the pants very comfortable.
lolx.

i'm talking to baby now.
hard to type.

stop here for now!

a tired night

today's business not so bad..
again..
i was stuck in bar..
bar was almost full..
hehe.
sales in my bar not so bad..
so i dint hit record.
lolx*

tomorrow gonna buy my black blouse & pants.
hmm.
gonna say byebye to my money again..

i will fetch dear tml!
just a lil surprise la.
dear..明天我来接你！

i would probably stay home on fri..
vacuum & mop the floor..
might be packing up my room too if i'm not lazy.
if i cant get my blouse & pants tml..
i will definitely make a trip down to town to get it by hook or by crook.
cos i need it on sat.

well..
i am super hungry now.
gonna grab something to satisfy my stomach.
i have not taken my dinner ok!
my last meal was about 2pm+!

ok.
i better do so now.
dear nvr reply me liao.
maybe he flew to dreamland?
or watever?
oh well..
its ok.
i will still give him a morning call at 8.30 sharp..
PROVIDED if i can wake up la..
haha*

counting down to 3 more days to my full time.
goodnight.

workin 6pm laterr..
abit sian la.
cant imagine when i'm starting full-time on this coming sat..
imagining the long standing hours.
oh manx.
i so feel like crying..
but thinking that i will earn more..
no matter how hard it is..
i will still bear with it.

shall get my long sleeved black blouse on thurs.
as well as my sleeping pills.
also gonna take my passport photo..

so so so busy uh.
well..
nth much to update for now.
shall be back soon.

PS: i wish..i wish..i wish..that rachael will be a happy gal sooooon!

just another day..

today's work also so-so..
kairou's parents came VM to eat..
his dad quite humourous i should say..
ady went back home early at 10pm instead of desmond cos he work split.
wateverrr..
i don really care.

i was walking to the bus stop and i saw my so-called new friend.
she used to work at aria's.
but nvr seen her for quite sometime..
she transferred to Al Dente.
actually don quite know her la..
cos we always smiled to each other whenever i passed by her restaraunt on the way to the toilet.
so eventually i know her just like that.
not bad uh..
made a new friend in such a simple way.
chatted awhile at the bust stop while waiting for bus.
just gotta know her name, Cho.
short name uh..
she's from myanmar.
so surprised to know she is also from my school.
but i nvr happen to see her at all.
no fate la.

anyway..
i wanna cook my maggie mee now.
too hungry to go on typing.
goodnight.

my 3days 2nights with baby :)

i'm back!
finally..

the first 2days are actually quite bored.
only watched movies.
30days in a night & beowulf.
but of cos..
1 movie a day.
lolx*
cos weather caused us to cancel our swimming plans.
-_-"

today was fun.
make up the fun for the damn 2days.
went jurong complex to swim.
the slide was damn shiok.
but baby said its more shiok in malaysia.
wanted to buy titbits and watch dvd in my room de..
but after the swim..
no more mood liao.
energy gone.
our body battery are totally flat.

he is having a shower now.
thats why i'm here to make a quick update.

wee*
i have what i wanted.
got my organiser 2008 @ $8.55 which i kinda like it cos no much choices also.
also got my STGS book on the volume 16!
anyway..
it stand for:
Singapore True Ghost Story!

tonight..
my eyes will be stuck on that book.
after that..
when its 12.05am..
i will watch my favourite actress which is no other than Charmaine Sheh in that 七姐妹 show at TVB channel 48.

so BYEeee for now.

lotsa pics uploaded~

exams finally over!
went out with my classmates right away that.
drank alot manx.
we are aloholic-hoppers.


had our dinner over here.


my sparkling wine.


alice, eve, me

went back to work the next day after exams.
split shift.
saw this dog so nice..
damn obedient.
i was so excited.
even ask dear to come out from the kitchen just to see that dog.




this pics are about 1 week old..
went to my cousin's wedding.
took some pics in a very rush manner.


my cousin, peishan & me.


he is not my boyfriend. but a fake boyfriend. he's my younger cousin. looks like an ah beng?


these pics are taken during my birthday.









i miss my dear so much when he went home.
so i took it with xiaogui & sent it to him.
unfortunely..
he can only see the words but not the picture.
dammit.
but in the end..
he saw the pic from my phone.


xiaogui seems like smiling to dear..

okie..
finally loaded all these pics.
yes!
no more exams for me.
2 more weeks before i start my full time as a assistant sup..
cant believe that also.
so fast.
next sat i will be attending management meeting.
ok lor.
no need to sleep on my split shift liao.
i was quite surprised when i knew i am gonna be involved.
cos ady said i am starting the week after the meeting.
so i was involved.

well..
i will stop here.
if not tml cant wake dear up..
he's already sleeping so soundly behind me.
its already 5.00am!
my dark rings are out already!
manx..
pimples will sure be popping out when i wake up.

btw..
i will not be updating tml night.
shall be going dear's house for a night at his hometown.
then go back to his JB house the next day.
i will bring him for a fun swim on thursday.
then friday will work again.
shall enjoy my time with dear before i start my full time at VM.
if not no much chances liao.
very hard to find time to be together.
i will damn cherish the 3days with him from tues-thurs.
cos he also took off to accompany me.

THANKS BABY.

okokok.
stop here now.

a quick update.

i should be sleeping now.
but just woke up to revise again on my economics paper..
it will be my last paper tml!
but i don really have confidence.

if dear know i am still awake,
he will sure chop me up into pieces and eat it into his mouth.

i was sleeping so soundly until i had a nightmare.
omg*
its so scary.
imagine how bad it is?
its so scary to me till the extent i rather wake up and study..
i even on my com and blast up my music to study.
alright..
i have to sleep right now.

yay*
dear will be accompanying me tml night.
cos we will both be working together on sat.
byeeee.

i love u my dear moussie.

pics uploaded.

i was having problems uploading pics since last week i guess..
so..
now its fixed.
here are the pics.


me & huihui


choon mei(joanne) & me


me & charmaine. i am still trying to get use to calling her charmaine cos she is known to be samantha.


this is my latest pic. - during work -



P.S: i promised to upload this mickey mouse cake which JEREMY sent me..
now i have done it.
once again..
thanks to MR. JIANG!

:)

something is wrong with blogger..
cant upload pics..

just wanna thanks JEREMY JIANG GUO WEI!!!
he sang a silent birthday song..
and a non touchable MICKEY MOUSE BIRTHDAY CAKE.
so sweet of him.
THANKS ALOT.
u really cheered me up.

i will upload the pic once blogger problem is fixed.

:) thanks bro..

happie-birthday-to-me

weeee*
happie birthday to me..

oh yes.
happie birthday to my godmummie..
this person is ah bin's mum.
hehe.
just saw her & wish her..
so funny.
first time wishing someone happie birthday when its my birthday.
omg*
cant believe it.

anyway..
shall stop here.

now its my dear's time to accompany me.
sayonara~

counting down to my bdae? i don't know..no feel at all.

4 more hrs to my bdae..
but i seriously got no plans.
cos i'm still having my finals..
sadden.
this will be my most sickening bdae i guess..

will be stuck at home tml too.
dear also cant accompany me :'(
i just have to keep it to myself deep inside my heart.......

should be studying for my paper on monday.
cos sunday got no time.
going for my cousin's wedding.

aiya..
u guys reading this must be thinking that i'm so pathetic right?!
now i really do think so.
poor me..

thou i'm kinda sad & disappointed..
however..
i feel so sian.

but kenji said he will make up for my sad day when he finish training :)
nic said he will drown me :x
weiming said he will sponsor wateva baoyin will be buying for me :D
mich & baoyin will each give me a belated bdae huggies :)

i love them.
omg.
weiming is so sweet to baoyin lor..
me & mich having goosebumps.
i am so jealous of her..
wm treat bao damn good sia..
really 羡慕死了咯！

everyone is so happily in love.
i am still happy at times though..
but i am still trapped somewhere..
waiting for someone to pull me out of darkness.

那个人会是你吗？

SPAMMERS

walao.
that QIANYI in chenyun's blog caught my attention.
omgness*
come on la.
that spammer will be damn bloody happy if he/she gain so much attention in the tagboard.
who knows..
the person don't even know her..
maybe the spammer could be even her.
POT CALLING THE KETTLE BLACK~

YOUNG LIL KID!
i have better things to do lor..
i rather earn money than talking cock..
so..
think harder.

i am an adult ok..
so don't destroy my image..

彻底绝望了。。

i was so sad yesterday.
was alone near my house area.
doing nth.
except crying, crying & crying.
i'm just too afraid of broken promises.
this time..
i need longer time to trust him again.

today work BAR..
quite long never work le.
desmond's wife came down to go home with him.
she seems ok la.
then dear & me including shihua went to makansutra.
sent shihua home after that.

wanted to upload some pics..
but got there's error..
so sian..
nvm.
next time ba.
i gotta go slp now.
tml meeting my classmate for revision.
good luck for my marketing paper tml :)

1 more day to my birthday..
but i guess this year will be a boring one..
dear have to work night.
haix.
boreddddd.
guess i have to stay home for my revision for next monday.
argh.
i am so unlucky.
never had a real nice birthday these few years.....

swollen eyes`tears flowed

i am so afraid.
my mind is so lost.
lucky kenji, nic & baoyin can accompany me.
at this moment,
i don wanna stay at home alone.
too bad michelle cant go out.

nic will be bringing vodka..
kenji will be bringing orange juice.
i must drink to forget all those troubles for tonight.

my eyes are swollen after so much of hard cryings.
those matters has never left me.
they are always here.
i'm bothered by those stuffs everyday.
i am always afraid to be alone.
everytime i am alone,
i started to hear things..
why?

why still come and bother me after so long?
is it really my fault?
when am i gonna be free of those bothering stuffs?
how come they are the only ones who will comfort me..

kenji can listen to my problems very patiently..
nic can smoke with me & say lame stuffs to make me happy..
baoyin can hug me..lend me a crying shoulder & dry my tears.
mich can even accompany me on the phone whenever i need.

how come they are the only ones who are willing to come down at this hour just to listen to my problems everytime?
i'm sorry..
its raining cats and dogs..
yet they still come down when they can sleep comfortably at home..
i'm sorry guys..
but i really need someone now.

it hurts..
it really hurts alot.

helpless..

i miss my dear..
i know i'm hopeless ok..
he will be going back his hometown later.

he said he will fetch me from work tml night.
but i know i cant believe everything.
the trust is no longer there.
when can i gain it back?

no matter what he says..
i cant bring myself to trust his words.
trust totally gone.
he shouldnt have lied to me.
he made a big mistake.

i seriously don't know when my trust for him will be back.
as for tml..
whether he will be late or not..
or whatever excuses he's gonna give,
i'll be prepared for it.

somehow..
my heart tells me.
he is not going to be punctual..
or even..
traffic jam.
or some other stuffs like..
he will ask me to go home & wait for him.
whatever..

seriously,
all my confidence gone.
no longer there.

i have nothing for him.
except my love for him.
but i knew its not gonna be enough.

tell me what to do..
i feel so helpless.

exams fever.

my first paper is done.
wow..
the exam hall damn lotsa vietnamese & china students..
so noisy..

fri will be my 2nd paper..
marketing paper..
sianx.
lotsa stuffs to memorise.
think i'm gonna sleep awhile then wake up study again.
i am damn stress.

hmm.
anyway..
2 pics taken with my buddies during gathering.
thats last week la..
but lazy to upload.
sandy haven send me the whole folder..
those 2 pics are taken from her blog.

2 rest of the 2 pics are still fresh..
just a few hrs ago..
went sakae sushi for our lunch after our first paper.
gordon had a $40 voucher..
but the service is so bad.


charmaine,joanne,huihui,me,sandy


sandy & me


gordon & chee hoe..look at their face after the exam..


me,eve,alice

我是大笨猪！

i am damn fucking angry now..
i should have joined kenji & the rest just now..
why am i damn bloody stupid to wait & wait & wait endlessly again..
i should have went out with them to enjoy my mushroom & cheese prata..
instead of waiting like a stupid fella at home..
worst still..
waiting for nothing!

i am such a stupid fool.
i am so hungry hoping to have my noodles with that 笨老鼠...
wait so long already..
last min then tell me he wanna go out..
wtf manx..

i have been too stupid too many times..
oh god..
i cant believe i can having exam tml..

i am too stupid to be true.
so..
god bless me pls.

:: you can make a person's trust for u be totally gone in just a minute, but u will never be able to gain it back just within a day ::

siansation..

tml will be my first paper..
study quite awhile..
very tired.
hopefully time will pass very fast till my last paper.

my eyes are so swollen after studying so many pages..
feel like sleeping again..

yesterday heard from dear that he's working night shift on my bdae..
haix.
no choice.
gotta spend this day on my own..
abit sad la..
but what else to do..
nothing right..

thanks Eva S..

just saw my friend test..
there is someone named Eva S.
would like to thank her for taking my test but yet i am not sure who is she...
hopefully she would come by here again and let me know.

yesterday went out with my dad, sis, bro-in-law & my niece.
so fun..
but she was so hyper-active..
naughty naughty.

tml working split le..
so many days nvr work.
abit lazy liao.

should be starting full-time next month.
hopefully i will like it..
if not i will start finding other better job offers outside.

lazy-ness

exams are coming next week..
i only study abit..
den slack..
haix..
i really got no much determination.

monday night..
dear made me wait like fcuk.
i was very sad.
but he cheered me up very easily.
i am so easily contented.
he just drove me to allson's there to have our supper.
ate sotong..kangkong..lala...

cos i waited for him a few hrs without having my dinner..
my last meal was my lunch during 11am plus..
all the way to 10plus..
my stomach was empty.
thinking to have our dinner together..
but....
ended up nth.
anyway..
its over.

just now dear came my house without me knowing.
i thought my dad knocked on my door..
in the end..
its dear!

hmm..
he accompany me awhile then go home.
i learnt to accomodate at times.
he should go home early also.
furthermore..
he has the effort of coming to accompany after his work.

YAY*
tml rachel's coming..
after that we are going out!
yipee*
i so wanna play with her again!!!
dear said tml he will accompany me the whole night.
he will spent his night with me.
cos fri working morning also.

i love my dear so much.
i am so stupid.
should have cherish him even more.
he really cares for me.
loves me like no one else do.
compared to others..
we are so much luckier!
i must really cherish all this blessed happenings.

just ended the call with dear.
cos his card no more money le.
he went out to buy topup card..
though i said tml can buy..
cos now very late le..
very dangerous.
but he still went ahead.
i will be waiting for his call..