heartbroken.

i am so sad today.
here it goes..
i reported at vl at 8am today.
of cos..
some staffs are late.
my dearest staff, judy, went thru something which made my heart totally shattered.
no one can imagine how i feel.

she was told by "HER" to do clearing under the rain.
its not light drizzling.
its heavy rain!
omgness*
she was all alone standing outside to do clearing.
she was crying alone outside.
no one even notice.
i failed to notice until OM told me.
wtf*

i felt like a failure.
i failed to protect my staff welfare.
i totally failed as a head.

my feeling sucks.
judy cried.
juan cried.
i even cried.
it was like wtf!

i need someone to talk to..
where is the "someone"?