10 promises between me & my dog！

我很伤心。。
但又不能够伤心！
很辛苦。。
我要爆炸了。。

i am just so excited to watch the movie on this coming tuesday!
"10 promises between me & my dog"
its so touching!
i cant wait!
got the trailer at youtube.
nice nice!



another touching video..
i cried.

心動奇蹟 マリと子犬の物語

depression mode

is everything going the right way?
it seems very smooth now..
will i suddenly just trip & fall hard?
pls..
i hope not.
i hope its just purely love.
nth else.
i am afraid.

oh no.
i am thinking anyhow now..
my mind is so confused.
pls..
can someone tell me i am not thinking too much?!

i am breaking down.
i hate the feeling of hot & cold.
i just want the lukewarm feeling!
is that so hard?

emo.
mood swing.
depression mode.

我真的撑得很辛苦。。
我不行了。。
就快垮下来了。。

没有人能够真正了解我现在的感受。。

i really need someone to lend me a crying shoulder..
i really need someone whom i can trust..confide my sadness..my tears.

headache*

finally finished with planning the schedule.
wahs.
thats a big headache for me.

"she" changed my schedule also.
liew..
damn*
very kinda pissed off.

next wk will be a hectic wk for me, roselle & juan.
4 split shifts for all of us.
oh manx.
i'm so gonna be dead.

aiyayayaya!
how come all the events come at the same time?
fuck.

i cant do it.
my capabilities are so limited.
i am not capable at all.

yvonne..
u seriously sucks.

何淑贤！
你太失败了！

satisfaction.

i'm deadbeat.
sweeping & mopping..
wahs.
big chore.

打扫对我来说是越来越辛苦了！

back aching is getting worse.
even climbing high up e ladder is a no big deal to me in VM..
but now..
just a few days ago..
i cleaned e windows..
wahs.
so not steady..
liew..
leg so tired..
back aching.

now got cough & flu..
rach, kent & e "spidey" got flu..
dono who got cough..
sucks.

i got everything.
absorbed all the virus.
i am still trying to find out who's having cough.
i will screw e person.

nth much to add on now.
shall be back soon.

P.S: rach darling..i will try to make it the next coming monday ok! i will...i want!!!!

the speech of "i am.."

uploaded a short video shown during the SARS period.
not bad.
i like it.





i am so stressed.
gonna plan nxt week schedule..
i am so afraid.
everything will be handed over after monday.
i seriously cant do it.
seriously.

i am doomed.
i am so scared now.
i am so afraid that i cant do it properly.
i still dono even half of it.
i am so gonna die.

stress la!
why is it me?
why am i the one?
why am i so suay?

busy...

omg*
finally sunday is arriving!
yes!yes!yes!
tml meeting rach darling at vm for our tapas delights!
i wanna eat eat eat!

appetite is only so-so these few days.
had subway..KFC with rach darling..juan, roselle & kent.
wahs.
shiok.
but gonna be broke.

but i'm sure tml appetite will be increased by tons!
hehe*

i'm so excited!
so long nvr had a meal with her.

today was so steam.
ytd work till 1am.
then morning wake up 9.30am.
supposed to be awake at 8.30...
but i am too lazy.
so i took cab.
well..
i wasnt the only one.
kent took cab also.
ok.
now i am rushing off to buy plastic folders for the menus.
gtg before bookstore closed.

sayo.
ja....

uploaded pics.

some pics uploaded.
nth much recently except work.
going to have my tapas delights on sunday with darling rach.
hehe*
i am so so so looking forward to it.
gonna eat as much as i like.
i cant wait till sunday to arrive.
omg*


see how tired i am?
finally have the time to sleep during my shift break.


enjoying music in my dreamland.


cool down~ my awakening pill after waking up.


simple shot 1


simple shot 2


simple shot 3


simple shot 4 ~i am just too tired to smile anymore :x

真讨厌！

我真的是累死了。。
忙到我快要疯掉了！
每件事都是我做的。。
还好我还有可靠的同事一起帮我！
不让我就真的死定了！

我现在最讨厌就是听到“她”跟我说：“我不知道。。”
每次听到的时候。。
我就很想说：“你去死吧！”
真是的。。
烦死我了！
在老板的眼前装着很勤劳。。
在老板的背后就变成一条虫！
搞到我好像在老板眼中什么也不做。。。
我最讨厌这种人。

但我还是对得起自己的良心！
天有眼！

不说了。
今晚还是早点睡。。
哈哈。。。
明天终于能睡到中午12点多。。

我要逛街买衣服！
嘻嘻~

volleyball!

omg*
i love this video.
this video really cheers me up!

everything related to volleyball is my favourites!

i miss my vball kahkis..
oh manx.

they are:
mich, baoyin, li min, jiaying, elizabeth, hui yee

they are the best!

madness

these few days was a total hell for me.
omg.
always morning shift.
if not always split shift end.
gonna fall flat down soon.
tml split shift end again.
wahs.
going crazy manx.

kent was on leave..
everything start changing..
everyday got "funny" pattern from guests.
wah liew*
can u imagine how frustrating is that..
roselle is always scared to handle customers' complaints.
ended up i am always clearing all the shits.
i felt like crying somehow..
i felt like i'm doing all the things alone.

haix.
sadden.

today slept awhile during my shift break.
wahs.
damn.
when i was about to fall aslp..
lion dance drums really freaking "DRUM" me up.
then i fell aslp again.
but after that..
my mobile alarm woke me up again.
argh*
why like that?
i seem to only sleep for a few mins though its about 1hr..
omg.
going mad.

i am still emo-ing..
oh.
no mood at all.

pissed off.

today sale was quite ok.
managed to hit more than 1k.
hehe*
managed to push a jug of magarita!
so long nvr do alcoholic drinks ever since i left vm.

wah..
shiok manx.
suddenly got alcoholic stuffs to play around!

went home at 11.
cos the guests was slacking there also.
working with juan was very fun.
she always helped me.
so good uh!?
:)

nth much today.
everything was rather fine.
but the gan chiong spider pissed me off with her words.
freak.
so lame.
cant she see wat i am doing?
wtf*
cb.

numbness

heart broken.
why there isnt any much reaction?
why?
am i still unimportant?
i give my everything..
yet i get all this treatment?
what is he trying to tell me?

i am feeling worse & worse..
so emo whenever i am alone.
i cant hold on for any longer.
i feel the urge to break down soon.

tell me what to do?
i'm at my wits end le..

nth has been done.
i'm so left alone.
except scoldings, bad attitudes, cold shoulder, even to extreme ignoreness.

am i such a bad person to deserve all this?
tears flowed secretly everyday.
yet he doesnt seem to feel anything!

his feelings gone?
if so,
why am i still being a stupid fool to cling on?

i am just another idiotic person.
just another stupid fool.

shattered heart pieces all around.
tears flowed like the heavy rain.

a bleeding heart

watched the "kungfu panda" today..
very funny.
its in cantonese version.

sorted some things out.
i should be going next week on my off day.
no choice this time.
do i?

sick.
bad flu getting worse.
cough still so-so.
fever gone down.
but voice became worse.
so sicky now.

i felt so sick of life le.
work.
work.
work.
low pay!

i wanna be rich women & go shopping whenever i like..
ok.
i'm dreaming.
i know.
i woke up.

tml work again.
oh manx.
split end.
sianx.
everything is just so sianx.

不要一直让我对你死心，
别让一切都变得太迟。。
不要等到一切都来不及挽回了才做出补偿！
到时候。。
留下来的也只有遗憾。
我们之间真的出现了很严重的问题。。
彼此的距离越来越遥远。
他还爱我吗？
为什么我感觉不到了？
他还会关心我吗？
为什么我都看不出也感觉不到？
为什么对我那么不理不睬又冷冰冰？

我们的问题到底是不是一个问题？
还是问题已经不存在了？

我很累。
但我不想放手。
我始终是爱着你。
深深爱着你是一个错吗？
我只是要你疼我，关心我，爱我。
难道世界再也没有人能做到吗？
我不是没道理就流眼泪伤心地哭，
而是真的觉得心里很不踏实，没了安全感。。
才会伤心流泪。

我很怕。
我真得很害怕。
有没有人能借我一个可靠的肩膀让我哭出来？

big disaster

in big big trouble.
oh why?
why i got myself in such a messy mess?
dead.

got a blocked nose & a bad flu.
runny nose the whole day.
kent lor..
he got it first..
now i got it.

lacking of vitamins.

i must be well prepared now.
i should pull myself out of this sadness world.
i know it will be hell for me.
but i'll still try to walk out.

why still cry for someone who doesnt even know?

somehow,
i knew the results.
i knew it.
it turned out to be true in e end.

P.S: darling..i felt like i'm at my wits end. oh dear..i feel like crying. but i forced myself not to let my tears flow during work. its damn hard.

puffy eyes

my eyes are so teary & itchy the whole day..
so sianx today.
time seems to be passing so slow.
i am so dead the whole entire day.

i will sure slp early today.
no mood for anything..everything.

ARGH*
wtf.
i hate the life now.
freak la..

i am so tempted to get lotsa stuffs.
but no money.
why everything need money?

i wanna get a notebook..
i want hp.
i want more more more clothes.
but after all..
still afraid of online shopping.
cos nowadays too many frauds liao.
but the items are so damn nice lor.

i feel so alone.
its so near yet so far.
we walked tgt just now.
but it seems like i'm walkin alone.
whats this?
hate it.
oh fuck manx.

i so feel like hugging rach darling to cry out loud loud.
my heart is like thumping so hard on me.

am i going to be single all my life?
no pls.
i want someone who can give me unconditional love.
lotsa happiness.
lotsa lotsa care & concern.
100% faithfulness.
all the guys in this criteria are all taken?
not available?

i am going nuts.
seriously.

dangling feelings.

was quite busy tonight..
argh.
all come in at the same time..
all wanna take order at the same time..
fuck.
worse.
even wanna split bill when i'm at the busiest moment.
extended 1 hour extra..
lucky tml work 4pm.

tummy ache.
aching the whole day liao.
i have totally no mood at all.
don ever ask me why..
cos i don feel like saying it out.
cos its like not even settled yet.
i dono what is happening to me as well..
somebody might have already suspected it.
but well..
i still wanna kip it private & confidential.

i kept this sucky feeling all to myself..
except rach darling.
she knew quite abit.
but i confided to her in my own will.
cos we seems to be some sort in the same boat..same situation..
she will know if she is reading this.
haha*

ok.
i no mood to carry on typing.
i so wanna go slp.
SLP~~~

i hate this feeling.
dangling..
freaking ass.

wee*

yip~piie*
got a compliment letter this morning from Ms Quek.
so surprised.
knew her for almost a year since she patronised in vm.
nvr expected her to send a compliment letter.
she touched me also.
she's just so nice.

can see that she's a very fillial daughter..
always bring her mum to vm for dining.
her mum loves our crayfish soup.

anyway..
sent my resume out liao..
thanks to rach darling's lappy.
fred's lappy was so LKK lor..
cant even highlight the damn thing properly.
even tatiana cant highlight..
only rach can do it.
not surprising la..
she's just too used to the LKK lappy.

was so tired today.
spent my shift break doing resume..
when i finally finished..
i couldnt fall aslp.
see lah.
fcuked up rite?
but dinner at vl was yummylicious..
now i started to get used to the life there.
soon..
i believe i'll get used to the food menu.
i just need time.

ok.
i should stop here.
nth much to say also.
bye.

1st day at vl..

something is really wrong with my internet connection.
now i cant even do my resume..
worse..
cant even email..
omg*
i have to try so many times to connect again & again.
once i need the connection to send..
the connection failed.
damn*
cb*

how?
hopefully i can see rach soon..
so i can use for awhile just to email it..
walao*
sucks manx.

today is my first day at vl..
so-so la..
but the night was really slow..
no ppl sia..
only 1 table throughout the whole night.
u see how pathetic..
haix.
tml another split end.
but i guess life was rather peaceful for me now.
no much more political stuffs.

alright..
will be back soon.
shall go slp now..
i'm tired of re-connecting.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

happy yet sad..

still waiting for baby to reach home..
finally going to start work at vl on tue..
saturday was so-called my last day of suffering at vm.
thank god.

tml will be going JB with baby to watch movie..
after that we will be going to work tgt the next morning.

met up with lian siah, wen cai & my mei, doreen just now..
their group came down on sat..
was having fun talking craps with them.

my things-to-do for tml:
1. meeting michelle to get back my FBT shorts.
2. go vl to put my stuffs.
3. proceed to vm to wait for baby.
4. heading to JB.
5. catch movie.
6. supper (maybe..?)
7. go baby's house sleep.

haha..
just fix my blogskin..
it took me more than an hour or so.

i am still wondering why baby still haven reach home after so long?
almost 2hrs?
still stuck in jam?
omg.
worried.
worried.
worried.

i shall wake up early.
hopefully can complete those tasks which i long ago should have done.
i'm just lazy.
yes.
i know.