ridiculous person.

this mysterious person : passerby / the gal
simply just piss me off.

say until like i steal her bf.
lame.
baby & me are tgt for 1 year plus..
now then she come my blog to say all these shit.
some words that she said really piss me off.
i really prayed that she is not my fren.
if not this friendship will be over.
if this gal is my friend,
she will know i'm serious in these kind of issue.
i will nvr joke abt relationship matters.

i'm not letting her words affect me in any way.
i trust my baby.
i know he wouldnt fool ard outside.
his family members & me are his priority.
i shall love him.
i shall never leave him.

i nvr expect an outsider to make our r/s even stronger.
thru this incident,
i knew my baby truly loves me.

nvr did i expected again in my friendship..
i received so much care from u ppl..
thanks to choo, jer & hua.

i was thinking..
maybe it could be a blessing that she came & create chaos in my taggie.
wateva it is..
she let me realise lotsa things.

don wanna care so much.

i'm sure that baby & me, including jer & hua are going to enjoy at the chalet in a few days time.
lets look forward to this day manx!

to the gal:
i nvr wanted to say all this to u.
cos i don wanna hurt u.
i welcome everyone to tag my blog..
say wateva u wish.
but not to the limits that i will feel offended.
worse still,
u offended my frens.
but well..
u forced me to come out to say something..
so..don blame me for being blunt.
i'm sure my words will hurt u off as well.
now, i'm wasting my own precious time to say all this shits cos u insulted my frens!
if u think the way u are handling things are so right.
then u are very wrong.
this is so childish.
THIS IS NOT LOVE.
but..
FOOLISH-NESS!
sometimes i feel u are making a fool of urself.
instead of affecting me,
u made me feel like laughing.
i feel happie instead.
don bother doing all this.
there's simply no point in doing this.
u are jus wasting ur own precious time.
if u are so free..
spend ur own time doing something which is more meaningful.
if u think u love adam..
prove it.
SHOW IT OUT in a more professional way!
don hide behind the scene.
last of all..
i'm really against it.
so, pls do not insult my frens.
no more criticism to them pls.
thanks.

2 days MC extended

fever not still stuck at 38 degrees.
2 more days of MC for me.
thought i will be working tml liao.
but..
i was totally wrong.

my thermometer seems to be playing pranks with me.
when i check my temp at home..
its 37.9...
but when i went to the doc..
its 38.3!
argh*
always like that.
always give me big surprise.
my whole face got rashes.
sadden. T_T
so ugly now.
cant believe baby is coming later.
i hope he doesnt faint after seeing my face.
all because of the prawns.
i am just so sad la.
my face..
poor face..

don wanna say anymore.
head giddy again..
maybe cos of the medicine ba..

bored. but no choice.

i am bored.
very very bored.
back is so so so aching.
luckily there's no more vomiting.

i can finally eat something.
better than ytd already..
only had a half filled bowl of porridge which lasted me the whole damn day.
only had 2 mouthfuls..
then the rest was finished when baby fed me.

today..
just now..
2 hrs ago..
i finished a bowl of porridge by myself.
appetite was getting slightly better.
but my energy still not back yet.
fever has not subsided yet also.
still stucked at 38...

i must promise myself to get well on wed.
so that i can enjoy..
i wanna watch movie with baby.

tml will see doc again for my fever..
hopefully tml night will feel better..
tml afternoon will feel alright..
tml night will feel good.
then wed will be perfect.
thurs is my off day.

definitely i will be alright when i get back to work.

argh.
so bored*
cant think of anything to type anymore.
well..
ok.
byebye.

真是悲哀。。

昨天宝贝陪了我一整夜。。
虽然我人很难受。。
吃也吃不下。。
但宝贝到我家叫醒我的时候，
我的视线有点迷迷糊糊。。
但我很清楚知道我是很开心的。

我的宝贝还喂我吃粥。。
我原本吃不下任何东西的。。
但因为是宝贝亲手喂我。。
我怎样都要吃下去。。

今天的我就像昨天一样。。
宝贝今天早上去做工的时候。。
我还量了体温。。
早上已经37.9 了。。
我继续躺在床休息。。

谁知道。。
醒来过后量体温时。。
又上升到38.2度！
怪不得我一直睡不下。。
很不舒服！
一直在床翻来覆去！

搞到我明天又得要看医生拿病假了。。
在家真得很闷。。
一直在躺着。。
又没事做。。
有时候。。
我觉得做工有时候虽然很闷，
但生病还得待在家面对着四面墙。。
那才更闷啊！

记得我小时候一直希望我快点生病！
因为这样就不用去学校了。
但我现在已经不敢有这种想法了！

身体越来越不好。
工作时间令我不能有按时的休息时间。
我是不是应该换工作了？

可能过些时候就转到另外一行吧~
到时候再说咯！

high fever.

我发烧了。。
烧到38.8度。。
很辛苦。。

感觉要死掉这样。。
我已经超过24小时没吃东西了。
想吃也吃不下。
昨晚凌晨还吐了两次。。
真难受。

一整天就以直逼自己睡觉。
睡不到两个小时又因为感觉到很难受就起床了。
昨晚明明做工还好好的。。
回到家洗完澡就觉得头很晕。
然后就吐了两次。
差点还不能呼吸。
吓死我了。
我还以为我会就这样死掉了。

平时只需10分钟，
走路都没力气的我需要花大约30分钟走到tiong bahru的诊所。
因为家楼下的诊所都没开门。
连拿一碗粥来吃都没力气。
真糟糕！
那时候的感觉就像是在等死。。
我的天啊。。

下午去看医生的时候。。
光是等医生就等了45分钟。
害到我要死不死！
医生给了我一天病假。。
明天就在家休息。
看来我明天又是躺在床睡一整天了。

现在头还是晕晕的。。
还是别在这里逗留太久。。
我还是去躺在床等我的宝贝来吧。。

11点又得要量体温了。。
我不要生病了。。
太辛苦了！

emo-ing shits.

sorry for not updating these few days.
was in a depression mode.
cried during work.

breakdown.

thought i can really endure.
but i failed.

felt slightly better now.

thanks to siew choo, my best best best bestie.
never seen her for so long yet we are always contacting each other to share our "shits".
but yet i made her worried.
sorry my dear gal,
its not that i do not wanna reply your messages.
just that i dono wat to say.
my mind was very blank.

right now..
i have already got better.
i dono when i will fall into my world of darkness,
but i will try real hard not to fall in.

work is very stressful now.
i cant really take it.
i just feel like getting my ass off from there.
sometimes cant really stand someone.
but my pay had just increased.
haix.
i am so confused.

sometimes i feel like just slapping the "person" face.
like wat i did wrong..
so fed up.
i purposely finished all those stuffs which i am supposed to do..
then waited awhile.
yet the "person" still said that i wanna go home on the dot.
yes.
i am tired.
and yes.
i so wanna go home.
but i nvr pester u everytime on the dot to go home.
don make it sound like i came & go at the dot.
u are the one.
not me.
even if i am,
you are even worse than me.

u guys think the surface is so perfect when u all arrived..
u nvr think that i am the one who has created the "background" already before u guys reached.
wth*
!@#$^*()(^$%..............
wateva things i have done behind..
no one has seen it.
no one knew about it.
but i don care.
but at least make me feel like i am appreciated for things i have done.
not making me feel like i did not do a single thing.

bad things then u people keeping saying here & there.
i don feel appreciated at all.

fuck it.

one more day to go..

thank god that i am kept busy the whole afternoon till evening!
cos i am working full shift.
11am-11pm.
so scary.
thought i will end up like a dead rabbit.
tml off.
wee*
but will be fetching dear from work at 11pm.
hee:)

thurs will be another full shift of 11am-11pm for me.
but i am afraid that i will be damn bored on that evening.
cos i will be occupied with my inventory the whole afternoon.

oh yes.
happy 1year & 1mth anniversary*
i loveeeee u.

adam, 我永远爱你!

finally..

argh.
i'm very very dead now.
was too busy just now.
was extended to 11pm plus..
argh*
sadden.
thought can sit down at the bar to relax while waiting for baby.
but..
15mins before i can go home..
a bomb just dropped down from the sky.
guests are 95% ang mohs.
oh well..

i even had a slip at the bar..
all because of the air-con water leaking..
my butt hurts.
lolx*

oh well..
suddenly had a off day tml.
no la.
changed shifts with ady.

tml meeting baby after his work.
i also wanna change to higher pay job.
bless me. bless me. bless me.

hmm.
but tml die die have to vacuum floor..
mop floor..
if still have time..
i'll pack some stuffs in my room.
that means have to wake up at 1pm the latest.

i'm waiting for baby to reach home.
then call him.
hehe*
but only a few mins.
cos he's working morning tml.
wee*

another movie session tml :)

boring life.

tml can wake up slightly later..
i'm kinda used to it..
but i am still tired & lack of sleep forever la..

i so wanna have a digital cam of my own..
oh gosh*
i want a nice watch also..
hee*

also dono what to write also..
nth much these few days.

sian.

work.work.work.

argh.
no work.
no money.
no shopping.

这几天又突然吵架。。
不过我相信这些也没什么的。。
我们会没事的啦！

我知道田野很担心我。。
不用担心。。
我的情况应该会好点。。
我不要再忧郁了！
我会努力的。。

almost breaking down..

i am tired too.
i dun wish to get scolding when i dun even deserve it.

i did helped.
its not a compulsory thing to help.
but i still did.

dun vent all your attitude & temper on me.

i am so damn tired after work..
ended up i still get all this shit.
what the hell..

i will explode..
i have my own limits.

i am so angry.
yet i still cried.

i'm such a fool.

不安的心。。

休息的时间永远都是过得非常非常得快！
明天又要做工了。
宝贝就快离开vm了。。
看来我们也没什么机会能常常见到对方。
唉。。
没办法。

但是昨天我很开心。
虽然他还是迟到了。。
还好也不会等他很久。。
昨天看了电影。。
好看好看！
已经很久没有那么开心和他出去了！
虽然回到家有一些小误会，
但也已经没什么事了。
我也不想再提了。

今晚不知道有没有去接他。。
天气没怎么好。。
就算去接他，
他也只不过送我回家而已。。
唉。。
晚点再说吧。
等下再看看咯！。。

我的头很痛。。
可能最近都没好好休息。。
今天又睡到很晚。
昨晚宝贝陪了我整晚。。
抱着他睡觉的感觉很有安全感。
很舒服。

今年好像过得特别快。。
一转眼就三月多了。。
下个星期。。
田野会陪我去拿报告。。
我已经开始紧张了。
还好田野比我还要镇定！
让我比较没那么紧张。。。。
他的人比我还乐观。
但我还是怕。。
我真的很想和宝贝永远在一起。
田野说只要心中抱着的是真正的真爱，真心诚意。。
天爷爷就一定会知道！
我就这样被田野骗了过去！
他的话总是有力量把我不安的心给安定下来！

我要相信我的宝贝！

supposed to upload these last week.
but too lazy.

i love him. adam.


handsome eh?


the 3days of happiness.


happy smiles.

no more energy..

currently low batt now.
gonna drop dead soon.

3 days of straight consecutively split shifts!
split.
split end.
split.
omg*
can u imagine how tired i am?
12 hours of work & standing on my own feet on SAT!

thats my reason for not being able to update here.

ok.
enough.
i am stopping here.
too tired to go on typing.

shall be back soon.
finally i can sleep till 12plus tml.
afternoon shift.
hee*

my bed is so tempting..
waiting for me to lie on it.
baby's jacket is on my bed too :))

nitex.