i am shit!

i never bothered to understand..
i never bothered to care..
i never bothered to do anything.

i do wateva i like.
i am:
not understanding.
not caring.
just a pile of shit.

i am totally blank now.
i feel like tearing myself apart..

all i have done are just meaningless.
just a nothing..
doesnt make any difference.

perhaps..
i am worse than just a PILE OF SHIT!