Genting Trip 29.09.2010 - 30.09.2010

me & Rach had thisn shot inside the toilet.


Julie's daughter, Miss Beautiful Charmaine


Shihua & me had this self shot while sitting at the reception table.

finally had the time to upload these latest pics.
didnt had the time to update after Genting trip.
its fun afterall.
been so long since i had a holiday with baby..
although its damn short!
how i wish it could be longer~!
nvm.
its the quality time that we spent together..
i really cherished those moments.

lost RM200 in casino lor!
nb.
but nvm.
baby won!~
im contented as long as he's happy.

spend another night at baby's hometown after we departed from Genting.
dyed & highlighted my hair on the next day.
after that..
went back to JB!
baby had his shower..
he put his car for washing while we enjoyed supper.

not long after..
i gotta go back home.
back to the reality.
back to the stressful SG.
damn!

had such a good sleep till saturday afternoon.
& its Patrick & Onusa's WEDDING NIGHT!

alright.
enuff of typing.

shall jump to my bed now & have my beauty sleep!

pics below taken during my departure in the coach bus.
enjoy...

i'm back!!!

yes. yes. yes.
i went into MIA mode for 2mths plus.

busy mugging with my projects & stuffs.

i've been terribly busy with my uni life & struggling with my full-time job.
but still, i need money to roll into my pocket so as to survive!

2 more days of work in order to enjoy my 5days of leave.

will be going to Genting with baby & his mum.

my planned schedule goes like this for the week.
28/9 ~
finish work at 6pm.
will rush home to clean my floor before i go JB with baby.
29/9-30/9 ~
enjoying in Genting.
1/10 ~
i will suntan myself like a red lobster.
shall dye & highlight my hair after a swim.
2/10 ~
gonna attend patrick's wedding.
3/10 ~
will rest at home & complete some of my household chores.
4/10 ~
back to work again.

shitty stuffs

SIAN.

i'm sick of all these already.
going thru all these mess for the past 10 years!

ENOUGH!

really heartbroken this time...

another shitty month of mine...

i cried.
yes.
cried AGAIN.
cried really hard this month.
it happened last month.
& it happened again this month.

WTF is wrong recently manx!?

• have u ever thought that i've been looking forward to this day every month?
• did u ever noticed how much u've neglected me for all e negative feelings that i'm having for the past few days?
• do u know how disappointed i am?
• do u know all e unhappiness that i'm having...?
• did u feel how i felt about this?
• can u feel e way that i felt ion e beginning?

i wish i could just voice it out to u just right in front of ur face..
somehow, i guess its better for me to write it here now..
for now i know..in ur mind, it could be another round of bullshitting from me to u again.

PHEW...

finally finished my LITE assignment!
oh yes!
at least one is done.

now rushing out another two assignment!
terrible thing!

omgness!
i'm so tired already!
spent the whole afternoon finishing LITE online!
walao!
i can't believe i spent almost 5hrs on my chair with my both eyes focused on the screen!
serves me right!
now i'm having headache.
i really deserves it.

ok.
gotta be a good girl & continue reading my article!

BYE.

绝望了。。

我一次又一次给自己信心。。
一次又一次相信你。。
但是结果还是一样。
又是另一个空等待。

我不敢再相信你了。。
每一次的相信都成为了失望。。

STRESS

so tired..

im still so stressed.

guanjen better ring me tml once he call Sue..

oh manx.

suddenly feel so bad to abandon kangjing alone for bridging..

but im just so NOOB in maths-related stuffs.

i rather read & read & read!

haix.

sianx la.

no mood to do anything.

reading the 17-page of my assignment seriously driving me nuts.
its not difficult to finish reading ok.
lotsa of understanding is the most crucial point.
thats the main point of assignment.

oh manx!
i need a break.

i have no time for anything.

btw,
i must thank DADDY for buying me a new laptop.
I LOVE U, DADDY!

losing my sense of direction..

i felt so unwell after class.
wonder if its because of the subject that i attended today.

im overloaded with statistics.
oh god.
this is not funny at all.
seriously giving me a terrible headache.
& my head is still turning round & round..
suppose to revise thru wat the lecturer has said today..
but because of e headache..
i laid on my sofa till now.
had a cold shower but it doesnt help at all.

im wondering if i should drop marketing management & just focus on psychology..

haix.
im so confused now.

thank god that i found 2 valuable friends that will be going thru psychology with me.
& they are Kang Jing & Guanjen..
they are really nice classmates of mine.
i will be so sad to leave them if im gonna drop marketing unit.

suddenly dono wat i want now..
dono where e hell im going to..
lost my sense of direction in life.
this feeling is definitely not a good thing.
& im feeling like hell now..
figuring if i want or not!?

FREAK!

my brain juice is currently out of stock.
all because of statistics.
dammit*

all i need now are support & encouragement from my loved ones.
not quarrels.
not arguments.
not misunderstandings.

baby,
i really need your support & encouragement badly at this moment.
i feel like breaking down anytime any moment.

ok.
shall sleep now to reproduce my brain juice for tml's statistics war!

god..pls bless me.
pls keep me wide awake so that i can concentrate all the way from 9am-6pm!

terrible life..

so stress up with weekly assignments & coming presentations!
omgness!
damn it manx.
no more freedom liao lor!

this week im fully booked with work & school.

lets see..

Monday 3 May
11am-6pm @work.
7pm-10pm @school.

Tuesday 4 May
11am-3pm @work.
7pm-10pm @ school.

Wednesday 5 May
11am-6pm @ work.
7pm-10pm @ school.

Thursday 6 May
11am-3pm @ work.
6pm-10.30pm @ work.

Friday 7 May
11am-5.30pm @ work.
met up with Kang Jing for dinner - centrepoint entrance @ 6pm.
6.30pm-10pm @ school.

Saturday 8 May
9am-6pm @ school for business statistics.
after that gotta rush home for a shower & meet baby for our movie session.

Sunday 9 May
9am-6pm @ school for business statistics AGAIN!

see how busy i am..?!

next week will be WORSE THAN EVER!

i will probably drop dead on 14 May which is definitely not a TGIF for me!

Business Statistics FINAL EXAM at 7pm-10pm.
& the next day will be..
9am-6pm for BUSINESS ACCOUNTING!

ARGH!
THIS IS ABSOLUTELY SHIT!

UNIVERSITY LIFE is definitely not a great thing at all.
there's nothing except STRESS!

ok..
i have to sleep now!
have to wake up at 7am SHARP tml!

nitex.
wish me luck manx!

NOTHING!

piangx!
damn sianx la.
really nothing also become something!

omgness!

im really innocent.
nothing.
nothing.
nothing.
really nothing.

why cant u just believe!?

don make it seems like there's something when there's actually nothing at all.

yippee!

woohoo*
baby is bringing me to mac for supper..
wee*

i've been waiting so long for that.
finally..
but we will have to walk there.
no riding..
cos he's lazy..
he don wanna climb few more storeys up if its occupied.
oh well..
thinkin of it..
its good too.
so i don need to climb so many stairs tml!

school is really tiring & full of stress.
my school lecturer - Ms Geraldine O'Brien is really....
omgness!
her english is so so so damn chim for me to understand.
lucky i got a new friend..
gonna meet her on monday at dhoby gaunt so that we can walk there together.
as well as familarise myself with the routes.

oh yes.
forgot to mention her name..
she's none other than Kang Jing.
e surprising thing was..
she is taking bachelor degree at the age of 20!
incredible manx.

alright.
shall end here now.

byebye.

idiotic FREAKING day!

have been wondering if i should just chop my hair short again..
or should i just be a lil more patient for my hair to grow even longer..
have been wondering if i will regret again..

but its very irritating!
hair length is currently at my neck & shoulder..
causing my back so many tiny pimples!
so frustrating!

today is really not my day manx!
so irritated by someone.
nabei*
its as if im working alone!
already so tired..
yet i have to get all this shit.
just one big "HUH"from u thoroughly spoils my entire mood.
piangx!
there goes my temper!
arghh*

wateva la..
i very tired to say anything liao.

will stop here for now.

shaggy von.

walao.
cleaning up my entire room really freak me out!
i din realise i have so much rubbish!
furthermore,
now i know i have a number of bags!
omgness.

now my room is so clean after 4hrs!
vacuum & mop my entire house as well..
takes me 1hour!
maybe im kinda slow.
very picky..
die die must make sure its really clean!

im totally shagged now.

gotta get ready to go out.

will be meeting up with Bai Qin, ah jui, ian, ah soon & my baby for STEAMBOAT later!
im craving for super duper spicy soup base!
i guess only me & BQ will enjoy!
the rest of the guys will go for the non-spicy soup.
so boring!
no kick de!

baby will be fetching me after work.
but before that,
i advised him to have his shower first.
cos his whole body sure very sticky after a whole day work inside the kitchen.

okok.
i need to have my shower now.

cya guys.

shitty day!

had a really bad day.
went for supper with baby, ian & soon.
noticed my righty gums are abit swollen after my fav viet coffee.
but its not painful at all.
until i start eating,
the pain comes.
swollen bum is becoming bigger.

sucks manx i tell u!

this morning was worse than ever.
i cant even close my mouth properly.
even swallowing my saliva causes so much discomfort.

wanted so much to drink just plain water is hell for me.
not only my gums.

even my throat is giving me tons of trouble.
ended up with less than half a bowl of porridge this morning.

the thing was..
i am so super duper hungry.

was busy the whole morning.
not even a minute of free time for me to take a sip of water.
bombed all the way till 2.30pm ++!
finally i started washing glasses.
had my second bowl of porridge which is equivalent to 1 bowl of it.

went to SLEEP right away.
when i woke up at 5pm..
finish the remaining portion of the porridge.
& yes..
the pain is somehow better..
at least i can finally close my poor mouth.

had our briefing at 5.45pm...
im lucky.

my first guests came exactly at 6pm!
& again..
big bomb again!
busy again..
only get to have my first sip of water at 8.30pm..
got my chance to enter the washroom at 9pm!
so urgent manx!
imagine i already feel like going at 7pm!?
& i can totally forgot that i am very urgent cos im so busy!

until 10pm when i finish work..
finally get to see my mobile phone..
saw baby's sms..

SO SWEET of him to get "gui ling gao" for me cos of my extreme heaty body that causes my gums to swell!
the feeling is fantastic lor.

this is the first time he got soemthing for me when im unwell.

thats why the feeling is so shiok.

tml working full shift already.
will be back to vm liao.

i will miss my viet coffeeeeeeee!

alright.
i shall stop here for now.

will be back soon for updates if any.

goodnight everyone.

stupid headache & idiotic gastric

我的头很痛。。

最讨厌头痛！

胃也不舒服!

wth manx!?~

i so wanna sleep..
but my headache is giving me so much trouble.
so wanna pop a sleeping pill & sleep thru the whole night.

but guess better not.
wait till i really really need it.

already got headache..
& now my gastric is giving me problems at this time.

this is damn shit ok!

tml working morning shift.
damn hate the feeling of sleepy-ness now!
sick of waking up in e morning reluctantly..!
e feeling sucks to the core!

oh manx*
i better force myself to sleep now.

waiting for my pay cheque..
im very broke already!

i'm a sleepy head!

i've been sleeping the whole day on this boring sunday!
nvr even step out of the house.
nvr done any housework which i promised myself that i wanna clean the floor!

so lazy..
so moody..
comfy weather!

baby & me slept at 2.30am yesterday.
he woke up at 10am to go work.
bo bian!
i have to wake up & close the door.
went back to sleep.
& again..
i thought i can wake up can 12.30pm plus..
but no!
i woke up at 2.30pm!

watched tv..
& the stupid thing was..
i felt sleepy again..
fell asleep at ard 6.30pm..
eyes open at 7pm.

that means my potato-couching on my sofa ends at 7pm..
& AGAIN..
the worst thing was..
i went back to my room.
SLEEP AGAIN!
i covered my whole head underneath my mickey & minnie comforter!
CONFIRM + Guaranteed CHOP...
i fell deep asleep within 1 minute.

& i woke up at 10pm...
have my shower..
halfway thru my shower..
baby reached my house liao!

funniest thing again..
i'm feeling sleepy le..
i'm going back to SLEEP!

tml working full shift anyway!

alright.
nth much for me to add on at this moment.

nitex.

我对宝贝的爱。。

没有人可以阻挡我对黄成华的爱。。

我不会因为任何事影响到我们之间的三年一个月的感情。。

我们在一起走过的风风雨雨。。
不管未来会有什么狂风暴雨。。
我们都会一起度过。。
彼此成为彼此的屋顶和避风港。
彼此成为彼此的温暖。
是没有人可以代替的。。
因为我不会让任何人取代他的位置！
我的心也容不下其他人。
除了我的宝贝。。
黄成华！

我只爱他。。

他就是。。

黄成华！

newly pics

latest pic taken last week with my dearest niece, rachel.
heavy rain that day..
she's wearing that barbie doll pinkie raincoat.
was alone with her..
thought i wouldnt be able to handle her "stunts"!
but surprisingly,
she was so obedient.
i was damn shocked.


HERE GOES THE BABY SUCKLING PIGGY!











now i realise my photography skills aint bad at all.
in fact,
im getting more & more better at it.
haha*
guess i got my practicing by helping the guest to take pics.

yes.
its true.

PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT!

thats all i have got for now.

will be back for new updates.
cya everybody.
nitex.

boredd.

so boring.

baby is slping like a dead log!
play texas poker play until sianx liao!
already very stone-ed.

tml working 11-6!
yippee!

the main troublesome thing is..
i do not have any plans for tml with baby!
cos baby's working 11-5!
nabei*
how come he can be earlier than me?

hmm..
i wish i can feel slpy now..
so that i can join baby as well.
guess he will slp till tml liao!
argh*

wat can i do now?
tell me pls..

im so boredd!
no games are attracting my attention!

come on!

omgness*

又打回原形。。

我真的跟他一点关系都没有！
你为什么不相信？
我都已经证明给你看了。。
但你还是用这种方式对待我。。
这就是你想要的结果吗？

你每次的忽冷忽热。。
我很辛苦。。
很心碎！
你到底知不知道。。

难道我们卖的戒指一点意义都没有吗？

我不勉强你了。。
你想要怎样对我就随你吧！

我没有做什么对不起你。。
那天不是说好了吗？
一起床你又打回原形！

我很辛苦！
我哭到快要垮了！

quick updates

i was terribly occupied with baby & work.
well..
at least i am happy now.

baby showered his love, care & concern to me.
maybe because of that CNY incident,
we learnt to cherish each other more ever since.

went to get our new pair of rings just 2 weeks ago.
after that we went to pizza hut @ marina square.
cant believe baby has the mood to ride his bike all the way from iluma to marina.
this is real weird cos its not his usual behaviour.
its just his cravings for pizza.
had a super big, yummy yet super duper filling meal.
we ordered a personal pan pizza & a 10-inch pizza.
im so struggling to finish it all.
& yes..
we managed to conquer the whole thingy w/o even leaving any single piece left!
furthermore,
we actually had a fried scallop for appetizer before pizza arrives!

our rings arrived the shop on 17march'2010.
too bad i gotta work the whole day.
baby gotta collect it for me.
thought that we can collect it together!
damn*

on the 18march'2010,
i gotta work the whole day..
& baby finished work at 6pm.
thought that this anniversary is a gone case again.

but this is not all.
when i reach home..
baby sms-ed me.
ask if i've eaten or not..
i said no.
he said he will eat with me then!
so i replied..
if u really eat with me,
by the time u reach..
i no need to eat also full liao!

the next minute,
i received his call.
checking if im home.
& i said yes.
he said he don believe.
so i said im really at home!
then he ask me to open the door.
so..
i really walked to the door & peeped at the door hole.
there aint anybody!
kns!

so i called him back & said there's nobody outside the door at all!
he said i nvr open the door!
ok.
so i opened the door..
he popped out from the sideways which i cant possibly see from the view of my door hole!

damn* damn* damn*
cant u imagine the happiness that i've got?!
its such a wonderful surprise.

oh well..

no words can describe how i feel now.

im super duper in love again!

felt like i have just known baby 3 years ago & it seems like we have just started in this r/s.

this feeling is wonderful.

been thru so many thunderstorms, tsunami, super freaking bad weather & so on..

glad that we are still holding on tight together.

baby is really changing for the sake of me.

i am touched.

very touched.

very very touched.

i am looking forward to a new journey of life with baby.

school will be starting on 28april'2010.
will be paying school fees on monday.
this is shit.
i am so nervous.
feeling the stress already!
i nvr feel so gan-jiong before!

i am glad that i have been accepted to take BA..
my next target is to finish this degree so that i can stop studying liao!

i must really work extremely hard cos i don wanna disappoint my dad.
furthermore,
my dad is supporting me by using his savings just for my degree!

my target now is to be more frugal!
i must do it.

• smoke less!
• spend less on online shopping!

现在。。
我最最最想要做的是。。
为了宝贝，
我一定要做好一个好女朋友的责任！
我要好好对待这段感情。。
我的疼爱和关心只能奉献给我最爱的成华！

因为我，
何靓怡。。爱。。黄成华！

始终还是一样。。

为什么你每次有话想说但又不说。。
为什么非得等到最后一分钟才告诉我。。
你以为这样就是对的吗？
我很讨厌这种感觉。。
你知道你这样做。。
我会很难受吗！？

为什么你总是喜欢把我带到天堂又突然把拉下地狱！？

过了这次。。
我对你更加失去信心了。

跟你挂了电话后。。
我的眼泪就不受控制了。
这些你都知道吗？

你不想就说不想。。
不要拿我头痛的借口！
我不知道是不是关心。。
但对我来说都是借口！

你无法想象我现在的感受是如何的。。

你又再次让我证明我对你的想法是对的。。
“对你的期望就等于给我自己失望”

我受不了你每次最后一分钟的改变。。
我的心一次又一次被割伤。。
你对我的承诺，
我不敢再认真去期待或等待。
你对我说的话，
我也不敢再认真对待。

Pls take your time to read this...

(The Irreplaceable Void)
So touching and can't resist not to share with you.
A story worth sharing...

4 years ago, an accident took my beloved wife away and very often I wonder,
how does my wife, who is now in the heavenly realm, feel right now?
She must be feeling extremely sad for leaving a husband who is incapable to taking care of the house and the kid.
'cos that is the exact feeling that I have, as I feel that I have failed to provide for the physical and emotional needs of my child, and failed to be the dad and mum for my child.

There was one particular day, when I had an emergency at work.
Hence, I had to leave home whilst my child was still sleeping.
So thinking that there was still rice leftovers, I hastily cooked an egg and left after informing my sleepy child.
With the double roles, I am often exhausted at work as well as when I am home.
So after a long day, I came home, totally drained of all energy. So with just a brief hug and kiss for my child, I went straight into the room, skipping dinner.
However, when I jumped into my bed with intention of just having a well-deserved sleep, all I heard and felt was broken porcelain and warm liquid!

I flipped open my blanket, and there lies the source of the 'problem'...
a broken bowl with instant noodles and a mess on the bed sheet and blanket!
Boy, was I mad!
I was so furious that I took a clothes hanger, charged straight at my child who was happily playing with his toy, and give him agood spanking!
He merely cried but not asking for mercy, except a short explanation: "Dad, I was hungry and there wasn't anymore leftover rice. But you were not back yet, hence I wanted to cook some instant noodles.
But I remembered you reminding me not to touch or use the gas stove without any adults around,hence I turned on the shower and used the hot water from the bathroom to cook the noodles.
One is for you and the other is for me. However, I was afraid that the noodles will turn cold, so I hid it under the blanket to keep it warm till you return.
But I forgot to remind you 'cos I was playing with my toys...
I am sorry Dad..."

At that moment, tears were starting to run down my cheeks...but I didn't want my son to see his dad crying so I dashed into the bathroom and cried with the shower head on to mask my cries. After that episode, I went towards my son to give him a tight hug and applied medication on him, while coaxing him to sleep.

Then, it was time to clear up the mess on the bed. When everything was done and well past midnight, I passed my son's room,and saw that he was still crying, not from the pain on his little buttock,but from looking at the photograph of his beloved mummy.A year has passed since the episode, I have tried, in this period, to focus on giving him both the love of his dad and mum, and to attend to most of his needs.

And soon, he is turning seven, and will be graduating from kindergarten. Fortunately, the incident did not leave a lasting impressionon his childhood memories and he is still happily growing up. However, not so long ago, I hit my boy again, with much regret. This time,his kindergarten teacher called, informing me of my son's absence from school. I took off early from work and went home, expecting him to explain.

But he wasn't to be found, so I went around our house, calling out his name and eventually found him outside a stationery shop, happily playing computer games. I was fuming, brought him home and whack the hell out of him. He did not retaliate, except to say, 'I am sorry, Dad'. But after much probing, I realized that it was a 'Talent Show' organized by his school and the invite is for every student's mummy. And that was the reason for his absence as he has no mummy.....Few days after the caning, my son came home to tell me, the kindergarten has recently taught him how to read and write.

Since then, he has kept to himself and stayed in his room to practice his writing, which I am sure, would make my wife proud, if she was still around. 'cos he makes me proud too! Time passes by very quickly, and soon another year has passed. It's winter,and its Christmas time. Everywhere the Christmas spirit is in every passer-by...Christmas carols and frantic shoppers......but alas, my son got into another trouble.

When I was about to knock off from the day's work,the post office called. Due to the peak season, the post master was also on an edgy mood. He called to tell me that my son has attempted to post several letters with no addressee. Although I did make a promise never to hit my son again, I couldn't help but to hit him as I feel that this child of mine is really beyond control. Once again, as before, he apologized, 'I'm sorry, Dad' and no additional reason to explain. I pushed him towards a corner, went to the post office to collect the letters with no addressee and came home, and angrily questioned my son on his prank, during this time of the year.

His answer, amidst his sobbing, was : The letters were for Mummy. My eyes grew teary, but I tried to control my emotions and continued to ask him: " But why did u post so many letters, at one time?" My son's reply was: " I have been writing to mummy for a long time, but each time I reach out for the post box, it was too high for me, hence I was not able to post the letters.
But recently, when I went back to the post box, I could reach it and I sent it all at once..."

After hearing this, I was lost. Lost at not knowing what to do, what to say......I told my son, " Son, mummy is in the heavenly kingdom, so in future, ifyou have anything to tell her, just burn the letter and it will reach mummy. My son, on hearing this, was much pacified and calm, and soon after,he was sleeping soundly. On promising that I will burn the letters on his behalf, I brought the letters outside, but couldn’t help opening the letter before they turn to ash. And one of the letters broke my heart....

Dear Mummy, I miss you so much! Today, there was a 'Talent Show' in school, and the school invited all mothers for the show. But you are not around, so I did not want to participate as well. I did not tell Dad about it as I was afraid that Dad would start to cry and miss you all over again. Dad went around looking for me, but in order to hide my sadness, I sat in front of the computer and started playing games at one of the shops. Dad was furious, and he couldn’t help it but scolded and hit me, but I did not tell him the real reason. Mummy, everyday I see Dad missing you and whenever he think of you, he is so sad and often hide and cry in his room. I think we both miss you very very much. Too much for our own good I think. But Mummy,I am starting to forget your face. Can you please appear in my dreams sothat I can see your face and remember you? I heard that if you fall asleep with the photograph of the person whom you miss, you will see the person inyour dreams. But mummy, why haven’t you appear?

After reading the letter, I can't stop sobbing. 'cos I can never replace the irreplaceable gap left behind by my wife....

For the females with children: Don't do so much overtime. If you cannot finish the work, it must be somekind of problems within the company, and it is not your sole problem. Feedback to your boss. Endless overtime may not necessary be the answer to the problem. Take care of your health so that you can treasure and take care of your little precious.

For the married men: Drink less, smoke less, cos nothing can replace your good health, not even business nor clients.Try thinking this way, are you able to work till your clients are totally dependent on you? or your boss is totally dependent on you? In this society, no one is indispensable.Take care of your health, so that you can take care of your little precious and your loved ones.

For those singles out there: Beauty lies in loving yourself first.With confidence and loving yourself, you will see the beauty in other things around you. You will be able to work better and happier. Don't let your health be affected by your work or your boss, so nothing matters more than your well being.

bloody FEBRUARY

i had a very bad day on a stupid monday blues yesterday.
vl had a set dinner event.
was busy doing set-up the whole afternoon.
but changes kept coming & things kept changing.
this is shit u know..
energy wasted.

thats not all.
tot everything's almost completed.
until when i was cutting the stupid greenie lime..
realised that the small knife is missing..
& thats my favourite knife.
so no choice right!?
i used the bloody big fruit knife.
ended up with a bloody index finger.
all becos of the slippery lime that causes the knife to slip onto my index finger.

i was damn damn damn calm enuff.
seriously!
serious okie!
i will sure scream in pain whenever i get cut by a sharp sharp knife.
but this time round,
no choice!
there's guests infront of me.
i happily showed roselle my bloody finger.

juanita saw..
again..
& she is not gentle with my bleeding wound at all.
i washed my finger in a laughing manner.
& that seriously proved that its not my usual self.
cos i will nvr do so.
hello!
its really painful okie.

i nvr had such a deep throughout the year 2009.
& yet i have a very first deepest cut on the first day of month FEB!
see how "LUCKY" can a human being be..

& the good thing now is..
my new com is finally here in my room again.
i am still not used to it.
everything needs to be configured again.
loading back all my favs music & memorable pics.
time consumed.
but its ok anyway.

i am happy with it now.

as for other matters,
i am looking it into a very positive way.
isnt it good?

trying to let myself be numbed of all those unhappiness.
this is somewhat self-protect tactic.

i have not mastered it totally.
but i will definitely give it my very best shot.

i have to end here now.

goodnight.

shitty person

if i ever find out who gives false feedbacks..
i make sure i will screw the person upside down.

this person is like shit.
or far worse than shit.
nabei*

stupid mouth.
stupid character.
damn idiotic.

fcuk off.
knn.
ccb.

u better watch out for karma!

bored..

im so bored.
but i love slacking in this way.

school starting at April..
very anxious already.
after all..
this is a new major for me.
im prepared to go thru lotsa theories..

my com crashed..
sianx lah.
im gonna get a new com asap.
i must get a new desktop!

my 2 days spent with baby..

went to baby's hometown on monday night.
woke up in the early morning.
cos baby's grandma arrived.
so baby woke up earlier to fetch her.
its been almost 2 yrs since i saw his grandma.
then baby woke me up again..
had a long journey..
almost at batu pahat area..
my butt almost caught fire!

when we finally reached..
its really a wonderful feeling.
my butt can finally breathe again!

nvr thought i can see such a scene.
its rather peaceful..
very kampung style!

baby's mum said by touching the big fish will have luck.

& its not an easy task to be able to touch the fish.

pic taken from the toilet view.

thou it may be a normal scene for many people..

but when u actually get there & see it by yourself..

its a totally different feel!

guranteed!

ok.

i have finally updated all the pics i should have done earlier.

im looking forward to it again.

gotta end here & have my shower now!

byebye.

vl injured birdie..

always wanna upload pics..
but im always lazy..
pics had been lying in my com for so long..
it means im lazy since months ago..

this poor birdie was found by joshi when he was smoking outside.
the birdie was attacked by a bunch of crows..
thanks to joshi who rescued it.

took pics of the birdie..
why?
cos its such a young beautiful birdie!


birdie was suffering under the rain for quite awhile i guess..

thanks to joshi again for bringing birdie to the male toilet for blow-drying!
& now birdie is slightly better.
can finally stand upright :)


recovering..


slowly..birdie..u will be okie soon.

hee* finally..

the white rice was sponsered by me from VL.

aint birdie beautiful?

alright..

thats it.

now im gonna upload another section.

10 years of friendship, unexpected stuffs

met up with anna yesterday at town.
had en enjoyable japanese buffet.
left with a bloated stomach.

shopped ard..
& of cos..
spending of some hard-earned money.

got my belated bday present from her as well.
cute little bag.
but good enuff for my stuffs.
hehe.
thanks gal :)

took some pics of cos.
but all e background the same.

after looking at the pics..
i seriously realised i have aged.
dark eyebags..
fine line wrinkles!
nb.

worse of all,
i have to find some way to get rid of my round apple cheeks.
i so wish i can have sharper jaws.
argh!
becos of my cheeks,
it made my face look so damn fat lor!

alright.
here are those pics that we took.

hmm.

time passes fast.

just noticed i have known anna for 10yrs finally!

haha!

the 6.5 hrs spent tgt was really fast..

its definitely an enjoyable one.

thanks for the lunch treat <3

trained to cityhall after that.

saw jeremy, shihua, wei lu & mei fang.

poor jeremy..

everytime kanna teased by me.

too bad lah..

i still cant forget the eve of 2008 countdown..

JEREMY JIANG had illegally hugged my ADAM WONG right outside vl during the start of fireworks.

i will nvr forget.

then slowly walked to vm.

slacked awhile & left with baby as well.

didnt expect baby to stay overnight yesterday.

we were chionging "the zoo" & i rushed him to have his shower before he leave.

right after he came out..

he borrowed my adidas pants.

& e most surprising thing was..

i will nvr expect him to bring me to MAC in the middle of the night for supper.

fantastic meal...

i'm loving it.

he fell flat on my bed right after we reached home.

halfway through..

something cropped up..

i vomited.

whole body losing strength..

this is totally shit.

spoils my happy mood.

luckily im better now.

thank god.

baby came to my house after work.

i didnt expect him to finish work at 6pm today.

another surprise.

thou he said he told me..

but i absolutely do not have any idea.

well..

both of us did not strike 4D today.

sianx*

haix..

he left abt 7.45pm..

just reach JB at 9pm..

thats fast yea!

will not be uploading for these few days.

cos..

i will be gone for 2 nights.

gonna be at baby's hometown.

& yes.

we will be fetching his mum & grandma to SG on wed.

as such..

i will be back on wed afternoon.

& baby will go back to JB with his mum & grandma.

i have no other plans for thursday.

cos..

i am working split shift.

well..

should work abit before my body fats starts to conquer my whole tummy.

i shall nvr let that happen.

ok.

thats abt all for now.

byebye.