asshole bastard.

i am so freaking angry during work just now.
i mean really really angry!

i was like waiting for the guest to give me an ans &....
YOU just simply came in & move the table..
YOU act as if u are so fucking smart ass.
YOU bastard lah!

hello..
this is not my first day working ok.
i know wat to do..
u made me feel like a stupid fool.
or worse.
an idiot.
you have a strong pride.
but that doesnt mean i do not have any pride.
i am a human being.
i have my own pride after all.
i kept quiet for so long & that doesnt give YOU any reason to step on my tail longer.
u know how stupid i am when the guest is looking at me & giving me a weirdo look?
oh well..
u don't know.
cos u have nvr experienced it before.
as u are the only one who always let ppl feel how stupid he/she is..

i am very straight forward.
i can tolerate at times.
but pls do not test my patience when u know i seriously hate this.

if u think u are so capable..
u wouldnt have need any help from others from now.
u really irritate me this time.
u test my patience again & again..
now because of u, i have blown up.

acting far worse than a gan chiong spiderrrr.

now i am telling u.
i seriously hate your fake smile.
i seriously hate your lazy-ness.
i seriously hate to hear u keep repeating "i tell u../i tell u wat.." to me.
come on..
u are not my boss.
i have my rights not to listen to u.
i have my very OWN rights to decide things on my own.
YOU have no rights to ask me to run errands.
YOU have no rights to order me to do things in this manner.
YOU definitely have no rights to stop me from doing the things i wanted.
YOU GET IT.
knn.
BASTARD.

nnb.
nbcb.

if u wanna be in-charge..
go ahead.
if u plan to be able to take charge..
pls do so.
don pass it to me & then u snatch it away.
once u pass it to me..
don be a busybody to do it.

i know u are the one who eavesdrop on my conversation with winnie.
yet u still pretended to ask me who is the caller.
btw..
is it your business?
no right!?
the caller isnt looking for u anyway.
u love to bootlick peng & simon's butt.
fine.
continue.
but i would nvr do that.
so hypocrite.
this feeling sucks.

CROCODILE.

survey

did some surveys on the net..
quite true somehow..
haha*

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

totally shag..

very tired..
very very tired.

tml working straightttt shifttttttttttt..
10.30am-10pm.
i cant imagine how's time gonna pass on tml..
argh*
10.30am-2pm will be doing outside catering..
after that gonna rush back to vm to do the setup for 110pax, NUS function.
damn.
furthermore..
will be working from 12-10 on sunday.
walao eh*
damn sianx sia..
haix.
i cant wait till tue..
cos its my off day & most probably watching movie with baby at JB.
see how it goes ba.

got a feeling they very "niao"..
means stingy & fussy la..
but i guess i won't finish on time..
so maybe extended on 10plus or 11pm..
should be waiting for baby..

things between us slightly improved.
but let time tells ba..
i don wanna have false hopes.
hopefully its not.
afterall we are tgt for 1yr 3mths plus liao.

i am tired to fall in love again.

ok.
i am gonna call my baby le..

tml still gonna wake up super duper early than usual.

我的心受伤了。。

我的心真的受伤了。

心很痛。
真得很痛。

我的要求有这么难吗？
我要的是安全感，细心关心，注意力，当然最重要的就是爱。
这不是每个女人都要的吗？

完全没心情做工。
刚才打扫storeroom的时候。。
我一边打扫，一边哭。
眼泪不停得流下来。
没人知。
连割伤手的时候虽然很痛。。
但这种痛都比不上心里的痛。

为什么你整晚好想在避开我？
我真的有令你感到反感吗？

难道我真得很烦？
或许是吧。。

今晚的我好想看不见色彩了。
在我眼里似乎只看得见黑白。
感觉上我的生命好想走到了终点。

我的眼睛好累好累。
好想闭上双眼。。。

a sense of satisfaction :)

so feel like sleeping..
but i die die must stay awake to watch my fav TVB show at 12.20am later..

yes.
i know i'm working split shift tml.
but i cant just miss my fav idol's drama just like this..
i so love charmaine sheh.
omg*
how i wish i look like her..
ok.
i am dreaming.
slaps*

just changed my blogskins.
cos abit sianx of the look le..
at least there's so changes after so long.
haha*
i took effort to change & edit here and there ok..
why i said that?
cos i am always too lazy to find a nicer skin & change it.
thats e reason.

tml might be a tiring day for me..
but i don mind.
i will be waiting for dear to finish work in e kitchen.
bleahs.
he's my motivation.

today did lotsa cleaning..
but i rather do cleaning.
cos its time-wasting session.
i love this.
haha.
i was so proud of myself when raju & joshi wasnt able to remove the bulb in the storeroom.
hehe*
they are two big guys leh.
yet i am able to do so.
i climbed up the ladder,
& with just a lil patience..
I DID IT!
mission completed.
so i went MS with a sample & bought a new one.
quite $$$ lors..
when i returned back to VM..
i was the one to fix the new bulb.
wee*
i am a genius.
raju & joshi was rather surprised somehow..
they said i was lucky lahs..
but i think it was my patience..
ya lah.
i am saying my patience is good lor..
lolx*
BHB!

i just knew i can do it.
i trusted myself at that moment.
cos the storeroom light is very important to us.
if not very inconvenient lor..
i must get that bulb changed and make sure my store is bright as usual.
at that moment..
the torchlight got no battery liao!
i was like..
omg*
vm so poor thing..
emergency also no batt in torch.
kns.

my sixth sense tells me so.
i can do it.
yes.
i managed to pluck it out.
the bulb was damn hot anyway.
i was smart enuff to use a cloth to pluck it.
if not my both palms will be scalded with four bulb shape lines.
haha*
ok.
fine.
enuff of blabbering..

was chatting with chee hoe in msn now..
so long nvr met up with them..
me & chee hoe are the only ones keeping in touch i guess..
shall be meeting up for lunch on friday..
cos he's taking his cert ba..
ok.
shall stop here.
lazy to go on liao..

sunshine-s

刚看完电影 - 死亡的秘密
金城武在戏里好COOL噢！
好多人啊。。
而且还是满座！
我和宝贝竟然第一次坐在第一排最最最角落的位子！
我的天啊！
看到脖子都歪了。。
背也都酸了！
结局好感人。。
好看好看！

我的心里有很多感触。
我太爱我的宝贝了。。
爱到不能用言语来形容。。
他就是我的心肝宝贝！

心脏每一份每一秒都在跳动。。
时间也是每一份每一秒在过。。
日子在你不知不觉中每一天静悄悄地飘了过去。。
我的心却每一份每一秒都在深爱着我的心肝宝贝。。
我对他的爱是每一天一直越加越深。。
从来没减少过！
一点都没有。

经过了那么多的风风雨雨和无数的争吵。。
熬过了一年三个月，
终于还是熬过来了！
越爱他就越怕失去他。
我的心早已经不属于我了。。
因为心早就在18.02.2007就飞到他的身边。。
一直都想无时无刻都能陪在他的身边！

我不想常常都有争吵。。
我想每次见面的时候都是嘻嘻哈哈的。。
因为越爱他。。
所以每次吵架的时候，
我都会痛哭流泪！
感觉是痛苦到要马上死掉！

明天看不到他了。。
但我会很期待很期待明天的时间快点过去！
拜托拜托~

从小一直对信仰半信半疑的我竟然因为怕失去他而相信了有神的力量存在！
哎呀。。
我真的是注定败在他的手上了。。
我认输了。
我也只好乖乖地听从他。。
做他背后的小女人。
当然。。
我是非常愿意的啦!

我不能倒下！

等下就去接宝贝下班然后去看电影！
那天的十八号有点不开心。。
但没关系。。
我会期待下个月的来临。。
到时候。。
我希望那一天会是开心的。。

明天可能没见到宝贝。。
但我还是会想他的。。

我知道田野会担心我。。
他会一直来这里看我写了些什么。。

这几天心情很低落，
可是我相信我会没事的！

虽然我没什么信心。。
但我一定要相信我的宝贝会努力让我开心笑起来！

我一定要坚持下去。
我不要就这样倒下。。

我求求天爷爷给我力量。。
我一直都在祈祷着。。

numbness

there it goes.
i felt numb again.
this feeling is definitely miserable.
and i tell u..
it sucks.

i felt so terrible.
why is it always like that?
am i still expecting too much?
somehow..
i don tink so.

omgomgomg*

yvonne ho..u sucks.
u seriously sucks.

emo.
emo.
emo.

damn it.
damn all this shit.

successful event.

the PWC event is finally over.
thank god.
i was extended for awhile.
fortunately..
the event went smoothly as i expected.
received sms from freddy..
feedback on food was good..
service was even better.
yu~huu*
hehe*

the brownies was awfully yummy..
omg*
cant believe i had so much..
heaty heaty heaty..
pimples gonna pop out again..
knn*

tml will be finishing at 9pm!
finally..
can slp till afternoon on sat..
wee*
sunday no need to extend till 1am liao.
yesyesyes!

i'm so happy i'm so glad~

thank to christina who email a compliment letter regarding my service to office.
i was so shocked that i got it.
but..
i am stressed as well.
i have to maintain it..
if not..
once a complaint letter comes..
thats it.
u know u know..
thats how harsh a reality is to be...
thats how F & B is like..

must be always good.
once bad..
forever bad.
forever condemned.

ok.
i gotta have my shower & watch my TVB drama.
see ya peeps.
nitex.

will be back soon.

steamboating!

just came back from steamboat..
vm's gathering..
stomach bloated.
cant update much.
cos tml workin split shift end.
u see..

most probably will update on wed or so..
cos its my off day!
baby & me will be going to catch a movie if there is lah..

btw,
to those ignorant peeps..
don be so childish ok.
all these doesnt affect me at all..
alright..?
u ppl will only let me have the impression that u all are jealous & envy of both of us.
so..
be more mature.
time to grow up.

adam & me will prove u wrong.
i know we will be together for now..forever..
till death do us apart.

宝贝。。
我们虽然会吵架。。
但这一切都不会影响到我们的爱情。
不是吗？
对不对，宝贝?。。

feelings gone. final decision.

i had made up my mind.
i will leave vm.
requested for a transfer.
i must transfer asap.
if not..
i would rather resign and take a short break.

i don wanna tolerate her temper..her nonsenses..her mood.
no way.
she stretched me to my limit.
all along..
i endured.
but till that sat night..
she pissed me off totally.
forget it manx.

even when her mood is back to normal..
even when her tone to me is back to normal..
my decision is final.
i will not change my mind.
i no longer have feelings working at vm.
totally sucks now.

now my days at vm are like hell.
i dragged my feet to work.
but my whole mind was just empty.
now i'm working for the sake of money.
strictly only money.

no more friendship..
no more team spirit..
definitely no more personal feelings.

i'm so sure that this time my mind is tired of all this shits.
enough is enough.

requesting for transfer doesnt mean anything.
it doesnt mean that i have lost.
its just that i don wanna force myself to tolerate nonsense & end up making myself very stressed up & unhappy.

anyway..
i have stayed there for almost 3years..
its time for me to learn new things in a "non-sensical" environment.

tired. tired. tired.

went to the zoo on wed with my dad, sis, bro-in-law, my niece and my baby.
but i'm just too tired to upload the photos yet.
no time also.

i just come in to do a quickie update.
that proves that i'm not in MIA mode...

hehe*

i so feel like slping now.
tml got staff training.
sianx half liao.

ok then.
shall end here now.
byeeee.