to err is human..

to: "the gal"..

i never blame u..
everyone made mistakes.
everyone will sure have said something to hurt someone at least once.
including me.
i have also said something to hurt someone.
but its not important.
its important that you apologise sincerely..
however..
an apology is not always effective.
thats why ppl say..
SORRY NO CURE~

it's u who made our relationship even stronger.
i hope that u will find your happiness soon.

baby is improving again..
lesser quarrels nowadays..
i really hope we will improve..
cos i'm losing faith.
i guess he knows i'm serious this time.
thats why..
our r/s improved.
quite well so far.

tml endured a 12-hr shift then next day can go zoo liao.
yes*

sick & tired.

wahs..
i so feel like crying..
keep going to the toilet..
i hate this bladder infection.
omg*

argh*
just went to the toilet 5mins ago..
now..
i feel like going to the toilet again.
its like..
WTH!

i'm so tired.
later going to see doc..
pls pls pls..
let this infection go away pls..
so torturing..

today on mc..
but i cant even rest at all..
toilet toilet toilet.
my routine is going to the toilet wheneva i feel like it.
i just cant control.

hopefully i can recover tml..
then tuesday can work peacefully..
cos i'm working 12-hour shift.
non-stop.
then wed going to the zoo.
i rather be tired than going to the toilet every min.
its really frustrating u see..

ppl who got this infection will understand how i feel..

i got it!!

had my haircut before i went to fetch baby.
now..
i look like a china gal..
but pls don ever say that infront of me.
thanks*

watched "the forbidden kingdom" ytd with my baby..
overall not bad..
2hrs plus..

when we came down..
i saw eugene!
long long time nvr see him..
was rather surprised.
he's still as skinny as usual.
haha*

today's time passed super fast.
i mean really really fast.
seems like i only worked awhile then its already 10plus..
cos of a function.
the guests are quite nice also..
esp the 2 lil' cutie boys.
quite handsome in future i guess..

btw..
i bought my PINK cybershot digital cam..
of cos..
i will use the cam to take our first pic of me & baby.
the next time i will be using it will be on the 30th..
cos we are going to the zoo with my dad, sis, bro in law & cutie niece, rachel.
yu~huu~

ok.
i must stop here now.
tml working split shift.
gotta have my shower then take pics!

uncontrollable tears.

我终于回到宿舍了。。
很久没有躺在这张床了。。
感觉都不一样了。

刚才去看了医生。。
然后田野就接我到宿舍。。
他已经帮我买了鱼粥。
但我最不喜欢就是吃鱼粥。。
因为我爱吃皮蛋粥！！

回想起来今天取消订桌的事就伤心。
唉。。
没有就是没有了。
我知道想也没有用。。。

谢谢nic和田野一直逗我开心。。
可是nic抽了我很多烟啦！
讨厌。。
下次要收费了。。
哈哈。

我的心情还是有点沉重。
看来今天又会是一个失眠的夜晚了。
也没什么。。
我也早应该习惯这一切了。

肚子很痛！

a litre of tears.

1 リットルの涙。
这首歌完全说出我现在的心情。。

已经收拾好衣服明天放工就去宿舍。
以前每次去宿舍都会很开心。
但明天回去可能就会是我最不开心的一天。

原本订了桌想和他一起共度我们的周年晚餐。
我还亲自去那里制定要拿一桌。

这是给他的一个小小惊喜。
但他却说他想留在家有自己的时间。
我呆住了。

惊喜已经不是个惊喜了。。
反而变成了一个悲哀。
这种感觉不是每个人能够体会到的。。

我想躺着。。
但我不行。。
一躺着。。
眼泪就会不受控制留下来。

他要的是时间。
我给。
我一定给的。

我现在好想活在自己的世界里。。
没人管我。。
没人关心我。。
甚至我爱的人都没什么要关心我。。
我连哭都会被骂。。
我真的很难受。

我现在好想经紧紧抱着一个不会在我哭的时候骂我的人陪我。。安慰我。。
我很不舒服！！
我真想大声哭出来。

finally uploaded.

took me so much time to upload all these pics.
transfering & then uploading.
but well..
its finally done.
also clean my house.
had a haircut for my fringe.
once again..
i'm too used to short hair.

ok.
enjoy the photos.


this is my favourite meow. my most beautiful snowie.



vm's gonnabe-roasted suckling piglet.


worse of all..my baby is the killer. see his face?


poor piglet. rest in peace.


imagine how hot is the water?


i thought the piglet is pregnant..but baby says there is a bowl underneath.


these are pics that we took from my hp cam at the chalet.


we are so in love.


he's my baby. thats the hanna tatoo i did. yea i know. i'm still lack of skill.


muacks.


cheezy smile.


the 2 cheeky bros. jeremy & adam.


hmm. no comments.


the 2 loving couples. ok. shihui is the photographer.


well. i wont deny that its so gay of them.


i knew they wun dare to kiss infront of us anyway. this is just the pic effect.


in the chalet room after our wild wild wet session..


von,shihua,shihui


the 3 of us again.


last shot before we helped out for the preparation for BBQ NITE!


baby & me.

pics below are taken on the 1st day in our room.
thats after night cycling.







i did enjoyed & cherished everything the 5 of us had spent together for the 3days 2nights.
its simply wonderful.
lets hope for another time then.
these bunch of kids are real fun at times.
no prob miggling with them.
tiredness is the only prove & evidence that u have really enjoyed.

yes.
baby & me are real tired that night.

thats about all at the chalet.
i will nvr forget [05/04-07/04]`.2008

this could be my longest post of pics.
ok.
hope u guys who visited had enjoyed too.

i'm ending here.

bye.

so tired..

wanted to upload photos & the chalet stuffs..
but i am just too tired to do anything.
my schedule is like so packed..
ytd finished at 2am..
then last min went to baby's house..

baby just went home..
should be reaching home in about 45mins time.

had tons of photos to upload..
but will do so on wed..
yeah..
hopefully i wun be too lazy that day.
its monday again..
monday blues again..
tml sure no mood to work.
damn.
i cant wait for wed to come..
but once wed arrives..
i cant see baby for 2days.
sianx.
all cos of the sickening..apple-polisher..& lots more!
idiotic AH P**G!..BOOTLICKER~
some ppl shud know who he is..
but i dun care a damn.
he cant do anything to me in any other ways..
everything he tried to bootlick "someone"..
i always feel so disgusted.
yucks!
he's a freak.
i really cant stand him.
abusing his own authority.
f**k.
argh*

ok.
i wanna have my maggie mee now.

ended.

depression mode

no one seems to bother about what i'm gonna say..
i'm so depressed.

everytime i wanna say something..
u will never give me your attention.
but others can get it.

why?

i have no mood at all.

i am so freaking unwell.
whole body aching.
really very sick.
but when i told u..
u nvr heard that.

is it so difficult to tell u something..
or is it that u don wanna give me your attention?

fcuk it.

i don feel like going work.
but i still had to.

sleepy eyes..

i am so so so tired.
3 splits within 4days.
argh.
nvm.
tml chiong 1 more day then can enjoy for 4days.

my eye bag is getting worse.
lack of sleep.
too much work.
i just feel so sianx..

that mysterious gal nvr came & tag me liao.
maybe she still come in to see..
well..
forget about her.
as long as she don bother about me.

haix.
not many ppl coming to the BBQ..
nvm then.
we can enjoy also..

baby should be reaching home in about 30mins time?
hopefully there's no jam.
tml we gotta work full day.
pls...
let time pass faster.
i cant imagine that.
i tink i wun have mood to work tml.

no money liao.
just now went to buy some t-shirts..
hee:)
wanted to get a new bag..
but dint managed to find one which i really liked.
nvm.
tml go marina sq see see look look.
going to buy some stuffs for baby also..
might as well as got any bag i like..
haa*
i am really going to be broke.

i must sleep now.
nitex.