充满恐惧。

我是真的很没用！
是不是我太过敏感？

我总是觉得很不一样。
好像不是男女朋友的感觉了。。。。。
心很不踏实。。
为什么？

我不想放下。。
我又很多很多的舍不得。。
眼泪又流了。
眼睛也肿了。
心痛了。

从昨晚到现在。。
我的内心都是充满恐惧感。
虽然外表看起来好像没什么。。
看起来好像没事了。
但其实我不知道他的心里在想些什么。

你不再爱我了吗？

是不是想等我的心情好点再告诉我他不再爱我了吗？
我真的很怕。。
怕的是他在等我冷静下来才告诉我。
我不要有这一天！！！

我们的一年纪念日就快到了。。
我很想和他一起过那特别的一天！

听了HYDE唱的歌曲“EVERGREEN”后。。
我又哭了。
这也是我想让baby听的歌。



I lie awake beside the window sill
like a flower in a vase
a moment caught in glass
the rays of sunlight come and beckon me
to a sleepy dreamy haze
a sense of summer days
if only i could stop the flow of time
turn the clock to yesterday
erasing all the pain
i've only memories of happiness
such pleasure we have shared
i'd do it all again
the scenery is evergreen
as buds turn into leaves
the colours live and breathe
the scenery is evergreen
your tears are falling silently
so full of joy
you are a child of spring
with a beauty that is pure
an innocence endures
you flow right through me like a medicine
bringing quiet to my soul
without you i'm not whole
this scenery is evergreen
i need you far too much
i long to feel your touch
this scenery is evergreen
you've always been so dear to me
this scenery is evergreen
it sorrows at the sight of seeing you so sad
this scenery is evergreen
i wish that i could dry your tears
the bells have rung
the time has come
i cannot find the words to say my last goodbye
this scenery is evergreen
you've always been so dear to me