its over!

yesyesyes!
it's finally over!
i have survived my 2days of 12hrs of full shifts!

luckily i was kept busy the whole day.
thats why time passed SLIGHTLY faster.
just came back home with a bloated stomach.

ended my call with baby a few mins ago.
i'm also gonna sleep now.
so tired.

tml's function 250pax!
oh manx*
its almost 2am.
i better have my sleep now.
finally can wake up at 12plus tml.

.i
miss
miss
miss
miss
miss
miss
miss
u.

虽然只是短短的几个小时。。
但我又在想你了。

黄成华，我爱你！

心愿达成！

finally..
i got my new phone today!
my fav w910i!
wee*

yesterday was very shag after 12hrs of work.
omg*
tml another 11am-11pm again.
1 more to go..
pls..

went home to change and have a quick shower after work..
baby was waiting downstairs.
all the way back to JB.
feel like sleeping on his bike.
but i still TAHAN without saying anything.

accompanied him to watch his anime show for awhile then he went for his shower.
didnt expect that he will still go out for supper.
oh well..
had my tom yam mee soup.
not bad la.
drizzling when we started eating..
blah blah blah.
went home & sleep.
i slept so soundly all the way till 1pm.

watch RAMBO 4 at cathay.
took the couple seat.
first time!
cos normally nvr watch at cathay at JB.

went back to SG to get my phone.
baby also got his coloured contact lens.
i am his 老师 ok!

anyway..
i have to sleep now.
if not i will be damn shag & not be able to survive the long hrs.

nitex.

我的天啊！

i will have a miserable day at work tml.
gonna be stuck there from 11am-11pm.
12hrs of work.
omg*

i'm so sure that i will be very very very..
可怜！！！

pls..
let time pass fast fast..

i still cant believe it.

omgomgomg*

i love this show..
got the volleyball VCD from HONG KONG!
so surprised to see this on youtube..

i am dead beat today.
tml still gotta work split end.
monday will be worse.
its from 11am-11pm straight shift.
omgomgomg*

baby went back his hometown.
tml he's off.
haix.
lucky boy.
i can only see him on monday..

宝贝，我会很想你的。。

充满恐惧。

我是真的很没用！
是不是我太过敏感？

我总是觉得很不一样。
好像不是男女朋友的感觉了。。。。。
心很不踏实。。
为什么？

我不想放下。。
我又很多很多的舍不得。。
眼泪又流了。
眼睛也肿了。
心痛了。

从昨晚到现在。。
我的内心都是充满恐惧感。
虽然外表看起来好像没什么。。
看起来好像没事了。
但其实我不知道他的心里在想些什么。

你不再爱我了吗？

是不是想等我的心情好点再告诉我他不再爱我了吗？
我真的很怕。。
怕的是他在等我冷静下来才告诉我。
我不要有这一天！！！

我们的一年纪念日就快到了。。
我很想和他一起过那特别的一天！

听了HYDE唱的歌曲“EVERGREEN”后。。
我又哭了。
这也是我想让baby听的歌。



I lie awake beside the window sill
like a flower in a vase
a moment caught in glass
the rays of sunlight come and beckon me
to a sleepy dreamy haze
a sense of summer days
if only i could stop the flow of time
turn the clock to yesterday
erasing all the pain
i've only memories of happiness
such pleasure we have shared
i'd do it all again
the scenery is evergreen
as buds turn into leaves
the colours live and breathe
the scenery is evergreen
your tears are falling silently
so full of joy
you are a child of spring
with a beauty that is pure
an innocence endures
you flow right through me like a medicine
bringing quiet to my soul
without you i'm not whole
this scenery is evergreen
i need you far too much
i long to feel your touch
this scenery is evergreen
you've always been so dear to me
this scenery is evergreen
it sorrows at the sight of seeing you so sad
this scenery is evergreen
i wish that i could dry your tears
the bells have rung
the time has come
i cannot find the words to say my last goodbye
this scenery is evergreen
you've always been so dear to me

sorry, but i love u.

not feeling well the whole day.
maybe caught a flu or wateva..
at least now better.
was happily thinking that i can start work at 6pm tml..
but ended up..
gone case.
received a sms from ady informing me that there's a last min meeting tml at 3pm!
我是真的SIANx掉了！

took some pics ytd night after our night supper @ MAC.

我和baby已经有一段时间没有在一起拍照了！
嘻嘻！





我也有自恋的时候。。
当然啦！
难道要等到我七老八十才自恋啊？
都是在我工作的时候拍的。。
还好吧？

照片就到这里暂时结束。

今天和baby去牛车水逛逛。。

已经开始热闹了。

买了我需要的东西。。

钱包开始艘了。

钱啊。。

总是很快就离开我！

我今天也去了学校。

拿了成绩。。

我及格了！！！

连我自己都不敢相信我自己的实力！

我现在真的相信有努力的回报。

我还请baby吃我们的午餐！

还好baby说那碗粥很香。。很好吃！

他还在牛车水买了一样很可爱的东西。

但我不能说出来。。

否则我就完蛋了！

他应该快到家了吧。。

我看有时候我是真得很自私。。

难道我真的没有体谅他的心情吗？

我的要求有那么高吗？

我是不是一个很不好的女朋友？

那么我再也不会说出来他的缺点了。

省得我们又吵架。

我真的很想和你永远都在一起。

下半辈子都想跟着你一起走下去。。。

我还会有哪个机会吗？

你是我的最大的推动力。。

没有你，

我就会像一堆屎。

全身无力。

you are my greatest source of strength.

without you..

i am just a nothing but a pile of shit.

no more strength to move further on.

千の風になって

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.

i really love this song..

lyrics are also translated above.
hope u all like it too.
quite meaningful to me.

真的是累到。。。

i am so freaking tired.
body seems like breaking apart..
my shoulders are aching like hell the whole day.

baby just finish work.
going back home le.
dono whether i can still wait for him to reach home so as to received his sms.
i kinda doubt so.
eyes are shutting down soon.
so swollen.

how i wish i have bought a massager.
oh manx*

today sales not bad lor..
maybe can hit more than 6K!
hope so..

我最爱的成华，
你的淑贤会很想你的。。

happie anniversary!

today is our 11-mth anniversary!
wee*
but yesterday..
都是baby不好！
讨厌！

thou everything is kind of fine now.
however..
i don't wanna mention anymore.

i am so steam-ed today.
only had a few hrs sleep.

i'm definitely gonna sleep early tonight.
waiting for baby to finish work.

i'm gonna have my shower now.
cya.

你答应过我说。。
下个月的今天一定不能像昨天一样！
你真的能做到吗？
你会不会骗我？

这会是真的吗？
傻傻的我又抱着希望相信你了。
求求你不要又再次让我失望了。。
我真的真的很怕了。
我好像越来越怕你了。

we are rather lucky..

finally..
managed to rush back SG just in time for our movie.
watched "One Missed Call"..
not bad la.

baby just went home.
shall continue my paperwork then go sleep.
halfway also waiting for my baby to reach home.

alright.
shall stop here for now.
gotta continue my paperwork.
if not i'm gonna lose sleep again.

nitex.

闷闷不乐的我。。

took cab home with shihui just now.
cos the guest still having their meals.
ady, kairuo & weisheng left first.

lucky today my sales is not at danger zone.
phew..
just gonna endure 1 more day tml then i will have my off day on wed.

i will be spending my wed with my baby.
specially requested off just for him.
so wanna catch my movie & slack the whole day with him.
i'm very looking forward to my wonderful wed.

希望我们的爱情跑道上会比较顺利。。
god bless me.

我好想念我的宝贝噢！
还要等到星期三才能见到他。。
唉。。
心情总是闷闷的。。
我也只能希望时间快点过。
身边好像总是少了些什么。。
原来是少了我的另一半。

我的另一半就是他咯。。
还会有谁！？
他就是。。


黄成华！

god bless..

watched tv the whole day..
shall be getting my nail polish & facial products afterwards.
the weather is not very good le..
should be expecting a heavy rain.
also fetching baby at night.
hopefully the rain will not last too long.
pls..

i wanna get my baby pink nail polish.

((:

woohoo*

my pic is telling u guys that i'm real tired.

forced myself to take a quick shot since i've not been updating any pics.

finally reach home.

i really miss my baby..

today's work very tiring.

but sales not bad.

simon treated us char kway teow & hokkien mee.

yesterday finished at 11pm.

went for my supper with jer,shihua & shihui.

lost my skill yesterday.

couldnt really eat much.

i'm sure i can sleep really well later on.

finally its my OFF day tml.

hopefully tml can see my baby..

这两天都很难过。。

我是真的很想你噢！

a quiet mind

today patricia mok came to our bar..

she seems very nice.

no attitude problem.

she called me "gal ah"..

cos she wanna order something.

the way she talked to me is very open de..

seems like we are no strangers.

hope to see u again.

thanks to kenji!
he sent me to the doc & sent me back home right to my doorstep.
even paid for my medical bills.

真的谢谢你，田野！
不然的话。。
我也不知道该怎么办好！
麻烦你了。
麻烦你很多很多年了！
谢谢你给我的惊喜。

thanks for showing up to surprise me when u sensed that i needed somebody.
真的觉得你很神奇！
因为我每次需要一个人在我身边的时候。。
你总是每次都能感应到！

i'm ok now.
i will never do all those foolish stuffs again.
i will stop all this.

现在已经没那么痛了。
我不敢去想了！
就这样看着办吧。

i never feel so tired before..

finish work at 7pm today.
went steamboating session with rach & daniel.
rach asked the rest but..
they nvr come lor.
very packed over there.
daniel is really damn lousy in eating.
so fast surrender..
>__<"

i kept munching on my meatballs & golden mushroom.
haha*
so shiok.
i think i ate more than 20 meatballs.
not forgetting my pig's liver.
isnt that much right?

then chatted awhile.

went back to esplanade to find baby.

一直在想到底要不要去。。
放工后，
真得很累！
我的脚一直想要回家。
但是。。
我的心却不想放弃。
结果，
我的心战胜我的双脚。
最后还是去了。
为一想要的只是希望能够给他一个小小的惊喜。。
也希望他能明白我对他的用心良苦。

当我决定去的时候，
我就知道自己的心已经完完全全飞到他的身边。
到了一个连我自己都不能控制的地步。。。

bought my bag already..
finally!!!
its still considered my xmas present for myself.

我又要破产了。。
糟糕！
又得牺牲我最爱的薯条了。。
没得吃薯条了！
这是没办法的办法。

numb.

我很不开心。。
真得很不开心！

他变了。。

天气转凉了，
总是觉得冷冷的。。
但现在，
我的心也开始冷了。。
我真的不知道我自己还能维持多久。

satisfied.

我真的是累倒了。。

打扫其实是很辛苦的。。
但看到你自己打扫得干干净净。。
是真的很有满足感！！
很爽!
晚点还得去买老大和老二的粮食！
然后又要去接baby。。
顺便去拿restaurant的锁匙。

明天Christopher Lee和Jessica Liu会来拍戏。
有点期待啦。。
哈哈！

worse thing is..
i have to reach VM at 8am to open door..
tien hon will come at 8.30am.

i think i will be very shag tml.
lucky thing was..
i will finish at 10pm.

just finished cleaning my floor..
now i'm doing my facial mask.
very very long never pamper myself!!!
always busy with work stuffs.

悲伤的我。。

well..
i'm back!

my mind is so messy.

他已经差不多整个晚上没回我了。。
我也不知道为什么。。
我又开始胡思乱想了！

我其实昨晚是很开心的。。
因为能和baby一起迎接2008年。。
还一起看漂亮的烟花！

可是现在。。
我的心情又没什么好了。
是不是不想再要我这个人了？

本来因该是开开心心的。。
结果呢？。。

告诉我应该要怎么做？
我又担心又烦。

眼泪又不听我的话了。
就是一直在流。。。。。

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HAPPY 2008!!

i'll be coming back to update later..
cos i'm meeting anand at MAC for supper..
a chit-chatting session also.
quite long nvr meet up liao.

gonna have my shower now.
will be back in awhile's time.