Tuesday, August 14, 2007

a bleeding heart

he just left me.
i cried.
cos i miss him.

but i know this is a matter of time.
& i know its a better thing for him.
he's suffering too much.
i know he will miss me.
may he will rest in peace.
he must be in his wonderful world with lots of friends now..
running around..
playing with all his might.

he's so inactive just now.
i knew something was wrong.
very wrong.

but i told him..
baby,
its ok..
u are back home finally.
u are gonna be alright.
i am always with u.

after my nap..
i saw him having his favourite beef.
as usual,
he finished everything of it.
he then fell asleep.
but never wake up.
his body was ice cold.
my heart was shattered into very small pieces..
tears just flowed out without control.
i was just so sad like hell.

but i know this is much better for him.
loving him means letting him go with happiness.
maybe he knows it.
he kisses me..cuddles me..stay by my side the whole day today.
i know..
baby..
i know all this.
i know u love me.
i know u will miss me like how much i miss u.
its ok.
i will let u go.
pls promise me that u must be happy in your own world.

you will always be placed in the deepest corner..
a secret corner where no one else will be.
my baby..

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