contented.

how i wish life is forever like this.

i'm happy with junhao.
no longer need others.
i can no longer turn back.

later going to his house.
gonna spent my 4days with him.
he's starting work again on mon.
this week seems to pass super fast.
i'm in lazy mode again..
this whole week not working.
just to spend time with him.
i mite regret with tears when my pay comes.
but nvm.
i'm happie.
its enough.

my cough is finally getting better.
can start to eat junk food again.
woohoo*

sianz.
next month is my niece's 1st birthday.
what can i get for her?
she got tons of clothes.
i miss her.
never seen her for months.

just bought my cordless phone.
finally after choosing here and there.
wow.
thank god.
so unconvenient without it.
will do the set-up when i come back from JH's house.

hopefully tml can go swimming with him.
not really swimming la.
i wanna suntan.
i wanna suntan.
i wanna SUNTAN!
i'm getting fair again.

changes~~

i guess i have changed alot after my previous relationship.
no more being so..
sensitive.
easily jealous.
possessive.

maybe people will change after something happen.
i have learnt to be more understanding..
i felt happie for myself.
i don wanna lose junhao.
cos i really love him.
no matter wat happen..
i will still wanna hold on to this relationship.
i have gone thru lots to get back this relationship.
never will i give up.
even if one day, he doesn't care for me anymore.
nvm.
i'll still love & care for him:)
i want him to be my final guy in my life.

hell gate!

oh manz*
i almost went to hell.
i used my own thermometer to check my temp..
fine..its 38.0
i feel very very xinfu not long after my dear reached my house.
almost dying state..
he brought mi to clinic at tiong.
omg*
when the doc shown me the temp..
gosh^.^
its 38.9!
i was stunted with my eyes wide open.
no wonder i feel like dying.

thanks my dear for accompanying me during my suckiest period.
u have never seen me sick till so serious like ytd.
sorrie that i bore u to hell.
was supposed to acc u ..
but in the end..
u ended up accompanying me instead.
feeding me my porridge.
thou i ate very slow.
i really appreciate it lots.
i love u.
no words can describe how much i really really love u.

sick...

i lose my voice.
my throat is very very painful everytime i cough.
i can't laugh the way i want.
i can't eat the food i love.

i spent the friday night at junhao's house.
on the sat, all my meals were porridge.
he can eat chicken chop*
but lucky he gave mi 2 small portions of it.
not too bad after all.

i never had a good sleep.
have been waking up again & again after a few hrs.
later junhao coming my house..
he will be accompanying me tonight.
thanks my dearest* muackss__.
how i wish i'm not sick..
if not i'll be the one going his house.
now gotta trouble him to come all e way down.

GOD,
pls bless me.
i don wanna be sick.
i wanna get well asap.
i wanna be happie when junhao's with me.
but i couldn't do it.
i don wan the cough & flu to be the third party.
i wanna be well & healthy.

sore throat..cough

no good.
my throat is much more painful than ytd.
my cough is much more worse & comes more frequently than ytd.
getting worse day by day.
now my voice sucks..
argh*

i'm a baddie.
i shown my depression mode to my hubby today..
something wrong with me.
i just cant simply figure it out..
WHY?
i hate myself!
my fault.my fault.my fault

lucky my dear doesn't blame me liao.
i love him lots lots.
love him to the core!
muackss*

finally over!

viamar gals were all dressed up. had a pic taken with sandy and the rest of my gals. even attached a rose on my hair bun. i had a tiring day during the IMF reception on tue evening. it sucks* rubbish everywhere. i am serving drinks from 6.30-10.30!

imagining pouring drinks again & again for four damn hrs! omg..its scary. i was suppose to be with sandy & lynette was suppose to be with princess but changes were made. i ended up with auntie goon..lynette ended up with joey! AHAHA!

auntie goon was going crazy when i told her the time was only 8.30pm! we were lucky somehow..there are alot of student helpers from ngee ann poly to help me in my stall station. my station was the BUSIEST OF ALL! finally, its 10pm!

FIREWORKS time* so damn nice lor* i was smiling to myself .. how i wish junhao was there with me watching fireworks together. soon after..its ending..we started doing closing here & there. when me & sandy saw lynette carrying 3 cartons of drinks & walkin in a very very FUNNY way..we laugh like shiit till the extend that we do not have any energy to walk. its overall an enjoyable day thou we are all very shag. freddy give all the gals $10..for reward? hee* me, mon, wesley & KS shared cab home. but i was heading to my junhao's house....

was coughing like hell since mon.
my throat was damn painful lor.
poor me :'(
can't even enjoy something nice..
wateva i swallow anything..
pain comes.
argh*
i'm losing my voice bit by bit.

boring again.
later working night.
won't be able to see junhao tonight.
nvm.
should be able to meet him on fri late night.
i'm waiting...

hmm..

tml IMF going esplanade.
i'm dead. gotta wear very weird clothing and heavy make-up.
how i wish i'm not involved at all. fat hope*
i just threw away my ring with zq infront of junhao.
but somehow, i don mind at all.
i knew we are over. no more feelings for him.
now junhao at my house.
gotta end here. nitez.

sucky day-

worked night shift on fri.
he fetched me from work.
watched vcd from 2am+ till 6am!
slept till afternoon.
was feeling hungry soon after i woke up.
my dearest junhao made sandwich for me. so sweet*
its really nice.hmm..yummy**






boring sunday.

munching on my titbits.fattening*
just finished my sharkfins soup for breakfast & lunch.
just left each other cos he's working.
but now..
i miss him like hell again.
so wish seeing now right infront of my eyes.
so wish that monday can reach faster..so that i can see my junhao asap.