bloody FEBRUARY

i had a very bad day on a stupid monday blues yesterday.
vl had a set dinner event.
was busy doing set-up the whole afternoon.
but changes kept coming & things kept changing.
this is shit u know..
energy wasted.

thats not all.
tot everything's almost completed.
until when i was cutting the stupid greenie lime..
realised that the small knife is missing..
& thats my favourite knife.
so no choice right!?
i used the bloody big fruit knife.
ended up with a bloody index finger.
all becos of the slippery lime that causes the knife to slip onto my index finger.

i was damn damn damn calm enuff.
seriously!
serious okie!
i will sure scream in pain whenever i get cut by a sharp sharp knife.
but this time round,
no choice!
there's guests infront of me.
i happily showed roselle my bloody finger.

juanita saw..
again..
& she is not gentle with my bleeding wound at all.
i washed my finger in a laughing manner.
& that seriously proved that its not my usual self.
cos i will nvr do so.
hello!
its really painful okie.

i nvr had such a deep throughout the year 2009.
& yet i have a very first deepest cut on the first day of month FEB!
see how "LUCKY" can a human being be..

& the good thing now is..
my new com is finally here in my room again.
i am still not used to it.
everything needs to be configured again.
loading back all my favs music & memorable pics.
time consumed.
but its ok anyway.

i am happy with it now.

as for other matters,
i am looking it into a very positive way.
isnt it good?

trying to let myself be numbed of all those unhappiness.
this is somewhat self-protect tactic.

i have not mastered it totally.
but i will definitely give it my very best shot.

i have to end here now.

goodnight.