just another day..

its almost 3am.
yet i am still awake & staying online after working split shift.
today quite busy doing setup for function.
me, shela & ady are laughing like hell while doing work.
i love it!
time passes so fast when there is lotsa joy & laughter during work.

dear is already sleeping behind me..
cos my bed is just behind me la..

tonight can slp abit later cos working night shift.
dear will be working 10.30am-9.00pm.
haix..
he will be working from 4pm-12am on saturday..
after 12am onwards..
only him & ah peng will stay behind to prepare alot of food for sunday..
nvm.
i will wait for him to finish work.
then he will come my house.
wee*
i will miss him :'(

another reason why i am still staying awake cos i wanna watch channel 8 show.
"万里情空"
its a repeated show.
almost 10years show..
i love catching up with old shows la.
memories ma...
furthermore,
i think the show very touching lor..
in that show is featuring in China, Yunnan..so poor thing..
sometimes i see the kids..
walk so far distance by foot..
over the mountain..
just to attend lessons.
water is just like gem to them.

the song in that show is also very nice & touching..
oh well..
its starting soon.
i should off my room lights so that dear can sleep better.

goodnight.

my updates when i am not around..

back to few days back..
met up with my serene jie on suday evening for dinner..
had thai express.
not bad la.
so long nvr see her lor..
her looks nvr changed at all.
still young looking! :)
the pics we took..







went home to change and pack my stuffs..
then meet dear at our workplace..
went back his house..

he was washing his car..
i was bored..
so i took pics without him knowing..
but i know he will get to know it soon..











thats about it for that day.
we went back home at night..
cos we both working long hrs the next day.
omg*
yesterday work was like hell.
busy.
busy.
busy.
lucky its ended.

so we quickly went back to my house to bathe and all..
took train to changi airport..
but unfortunately..
we cant catch the train to tanah merah to airport.
the train departed when we alighted from tanah merah.
suay la.
so we took cabbie instead.
more cheaper..

took skytrain to T2..
had macdonalds..
again..
but no much choices at that time also.
had a full meal at mac.
bloated stomach!

smoke to digest abit..
wasting time..
then slowly WALK to T1..
omg*
the journey was damn long manx*
furthermore..
we are alone..
seems like no one else liao..


my baby :)


1st shot of us.


2nd shot of us before we sleep.

then slept awhile at the viewing hall..
until 5.30am then we go the counter 12..
called tessa to check their wherebouts.
she and the group just reached.
haidee got ALOT of stuffs..
excess size limit and weight!
haha..
after awhile..
shela also reached.
she took cabbie.
she rich la..

haidee was leaving..

i cried.
haidee cried.
i gave her my last hug before she departs from us.
took pics from her cam..
hope i can get it from her if possible.
i will miss her laughter..
she is my Manila teacher..

2 weeks later..
tessa will also be leaving..
oh manx..
sad.

tml another day of split shift.
another function again..
gosh*

looking forward..

just finish with some of my stuffs..
most probably will be punctual i guess..

so excited..
will be meeting my serene jie later for dinner...
so long nvr see each other..
almost a year or more than that!!
i must take lotsa pics with her later!
wee*

tonight going JB again..
shall be spending the night with my dear.
i'm so looking forward to see him!

will update soon..
maybe tml night?
goodbyeee.

wateva..u are so lame & childish!

to that idiotic "jo" who said i am a bitch.
thanks to her.
i am not badly affected at all.

dun u understand english?
as i said..
if u hate me that much..
u can just jolly well get ur ass off my bloggie.
dono how?
just move your mouse cursor to the TOP right hand corner and click it.
as simple as 123..
as fast as u said abc.

MORON.
don be so childish.
have guts..
tell me who u are then..
no guts..?!
i bet so.

P.S: putting someone down doesnt make u feel any higher at all. u aint any better since u can said somethin like this. i don even know who u are..u are such a timid person. just 1 word..COWARD!

steamboating!

i had an enjoyable day on 22.08.2007!
so yummy!
ate so much that me & dear cant walk properly..
took some pics..
he went to bathe..
thats why i got to quickly upload all this pics.
hehe*



yummy*



fish fillet..pig liver..pig kidney..



my favourites..



our favourites..



i love him.



i love him lots.



i love him very much.



i love him very very much.



he's mine. always.



we were among the bikes traffic jam at SG custom on our way back to his JB house.


we got our rings today.
but haven take pics of it yet.
another day perhaps.

after reaching JB..
did nth much.
went out ard 8pm..
deciding to catch a movie.

watched "Evan Almighty" just now..
thats so so so funny!

poor him..
he sent me back home..
later he still need to drive his way back to JB before 2am.
my poor boy..

enjoyed the movie lots..
had a yummy-licious steamboating session with dear..
the best of all..
its an unforgettable day with my ADAM..
i love u.

confused..

i am so vexed.

i don't feel a sense of importance anymore.
izzt becos of the time that changes everything?
i hope not.

seems like i have no rights to decide on anything and everything was decided for me..
whether i like it or not..
i will still have to say..
"ok lor.." or "anything.." in order not to upset him.

i cant do anything i wanted at anytime..
cos i am just so afraid that he will be angry that i am causing such a great inconvenience to him.

to use the washroom..
i gotta think twice or thrice to even request him to open the door for me.
cos opening and locking the door needs might wake his family up.

imagine me enduring my needs for a night?
i rather endure than ask him to open the door..
i rather endure all this than seeing him not happy.
all this are not i want.

there's something which i would not like to say it out.
only my heart knows.
no one will know except myself.

oh God..
pls tell me that i am just thinking too much..
i am just simply sensitive thats all!

fireworks!

yesterday work like crazy..
full house!
inside full..outside also full!
omg*

but the fireworks are very very nice!!

everyone was busy from 7pm till 12am..
me and dear are totally shagged after work.
but we still went to MAC for our supper.
cos i still need to go bukit merah to "throw" my cheque.

well..
i gotta go now..
need to prepare my stuffs..
then wait for dear to fetch me.

such a bad day!

u must be thinking that i am working now right?
yeah.
i am suppose to work split shift today.
but i am not feeling well.
cant take it anymore.
ady let me go home to rest for tml.
cos its hard for me to get off days on fri & weekends.

my tummy cramp was so bad that i had to squat behind the cashier..
cant even stand up properly and serve the guest.
thats how pathetic i was this morning.

but realise that i cant even sleep..
the "getai" songs..
omg*
the volume is just too high lor.
so..
i just laid on the sofa..
or on my bed..

i feel so poor thing for myself.
i am so afraid to be alone especially when i am sick.

lucky later my baby will be coming to acc me..
nvr eat anything after aunty linda's fried rice.
too painful to eat anything.

yet i am lucky again..
dear will help me buy century egg porridge.
if i cant eat finish..
he will eat up the rest.
looks like i am bullying him.

omg*
i love him.
i love him.
I LOVE HIM!
muacks him~

so feel like hugging him right now..
but still got so long then he finish work..
so sian..
i should have endured today and continued working.
i lose $24 just becos i am not well.

why am i like that..
my body system is so lousy..

i wanna get well and earn back my $24!
bLeaHx.

sickk.

feel so sick.
got headache the whole day!
omg*
thats torturing.

went to class reluctantly.
tot dear won't be picking me up cos he got something to do tml.
got his sms saying he's already at level 6 carpark!
that lil surprise just brightens me up..

i love him.
acc me to have my meal downstairs.
sent me to my doorstep then left.
i so don wanna let him go.
but i have to..
i just gotta understand.
my body is like so dead.
gonna sleep real soon.
tml working split.
hopefully not split end.
pls...
nonono!

anyway, i am so gonna die.
will stop here today. nitex.

some pics which i have uploaded..


looks ghostly? we both think so :)



i am so mischievous. i love to bite my bread or bun into shapes.



school toilet. shot 1.



shot 2.



shot 3.




the NDP star torch!~





this is how it looks.

a bleeding heart

he just left me.
i cried.
cos i miss him.

but i know this is a matter of time.
& i know its a better thing for him.
he's suffering too much.
i know he will miss me.
may he will rest in peace.
he must be in his wonderful world with lots of friends now..
running around..
playing with all his might.

he's so inactive just now.
i knew something was wrong.
very wrong.

but i told him..
baby,
its ok..
u are back home finally.
u are gonna be alright.
i am always with u.

after my nap..
i saw him having his favourite beef.
as usual,
he finished everything of it.
he then fell asleep.
but never wake up.
his body was ice cold.
my heart was shattered into very small pieces..
tears just flowed out without control.
i was just so sad like hell.

but i know this is much better for him.
loving him means letting him go with happiness.
maybe he knows it.
he kisses me..cuddles me..stay by my side the whole day today.
i know..
baby..
i know all this.
i know u love me.
i know u will miss me like how much i miss u.
its ok.
i will let u go.
pls promise me that u must be happy in your own world.

you will always be placed in the deepest corner..
a secret corner where no one else will be.
my baby..