失踪了一年多。。
我又回来了！
我的大年初二 = 闷
人家都是开开心心度过新年。
除了我。
其实我是很希望能够从你口中听到那句话。。
可是你始终还是没说。。
我想我大概是等不到你的那句话了。
已经等了三年了。。
结果等来的都是失望收场。
我为什么还是那么笨笨得等下去？
明知道是不会有机会的。。
人就是这样，
明知道期待也是空等待。。
但还是会愿意等下去。
有时候一个人想想，
自己真的有那么野蛮吗？
得不到的东西却还那么执著。。
是固执性让自己变得很不开心吗？
很多时候认为自己是对的。。
反而被别人说自己是任性，蛮不讲理，要求太高。。
我的要求真的造成一种很大的压力吧。。
对不起。
当我决定再次写网上日记的时候，
我已经认定很多心里话再也不适合说出来。
还是不说最好。。
说了又会吵架。。
留在心里才是最安全的。。
心里的种种疑问永远会是一个谜。
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Saturday, October 09, 2010
Genting Trip 29.09.2010 - 30.09.2010
me & Rach had thisn shot inside the toilet.
Julie's daughter, Miss Beautiful Charmaine
Shihua & me had this self shot while sitting at the reception table.
finally had the time to upload these latest pics.
didnt had the time to update after Genting trip.
its fun afterall.
been so long since i had a holiday with baby..
although its damn short!
how i wish it could be longer~!
nvm.
its the quality time that we spent together..
i really cherished those moments.
lost RM200 in casino lor!
nb.
but nvm.
baby won!~
im contented as long as he's happy.
spend another night at baby's hometown after we departed from Genting.
dyed & highlighted my hair on the next day.
after that..
went back to JB!
baby had his shower..
he put his car for washing while we enjoyed supper.
not long after..
i gotta go back home.
back to the reality.
back to the stressful SG.
damn!
had such a good sleep till saturday afternoon.
& its Patrick & Onusa's WEDDING NIGHT!
alright.
enuff of typing.
shall jump to my bed now & have my beauty sleep!
pics below taken during my departure in the coach bus.
enjoy...
Monday, September 27, 2010
i'm back!!!
yes. yes. yes.
i went into MIA mode for 2mths plus.
busy mugging with my projects & stuffs.
i've been terribly busy with my uni life & struggling with my full-time job.
but still, i need money to roll into my pocket so as to survive!
2 more days of work in order to enjoy my 5days of leave.
will be going to Genting with baby & his mum.
my planned schedule goes like this for the week.
28/9 ~
finish work at 6pm.
will rush home to clean my floor before i go JB with baby.
29/9-30/9 ~
enjoying in Genting.
1/10 ~
i will suntan myself like a red lobster.
shall dye & highlight my hair after a swim.
2/10 ~
gonna attend patrick's wedding.
3/10 ~
will rest at home & complete some of my household chores.
4/10 ~
back to work again.
i went into MIA mode for 2mths plus.
busy mugging with my projects & stuffs.
i've been terribly busy with my uni life & struggling with my full-time job.
but still, i need money to roll into my pocket so as to survive!
2 more days of work in order to enjoy my 5days of leave.
will be going to Genting with baby & his mum.
my planned schedule goes like this for the week.
28/9 ~
finish work at 6pm.
will rush home to clean my floor before i go JB with baby.
29/9-30/9 ~
enjoying in Genting.
1/10 ~
i will suntan myself like a red lobster.
shall dye & highlight my hair after a swim.
2/10 ~
gonna attend patrick's wedding.
3/10 ~
will rest at home & complete some of my household chores.
4/10 ~
back to work again.
Friday, July 23, 2010
shitty stuffs
SIAN.
i'm sick of all these already.
going thru all these mess for the past 10 years!
ENOUGH!
i'm sick of all these already.
going thru all these mess for the past 10 years!
ENOUGH!
Sunday, June 20, 2010
really heartbroken this time...
another shitty month of mine...
i cried.
yes.
cried AGAIN.
cried really hard this month.
it happened last month.
& it happened again this month.
WTF is wrong recently manx!?
i wish i could just voice it out to u just right in front of ur face..
somehow, i guess its better for me to write it here now..
for now i know..in ur mind, it could be another round of bullshitting from me to u again.
i cried.
yes.
cried AGAIN.
cried really hard this month.
it happened last month.
& it happened again this month.
WTF is wrong recently manx!?
- have u ever thought that i've been looking forward to this day every month?
- did u ever noticed how much u've neglected me for all e negative feelings that i'm having for the past few days?
- do u know how disappointed i am?
- do u know all e unhappiness that i'm having...?
- did u feel how i felt about this?
- can u feel e way that i felt ion e beginning?
i wish i could just voice it out to u just right in front of ur face..
somehow, i guess its better for me to write it here now..
for now i know..in ur mind, it could be another round of bullshitting from me to u again.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
PHEW...
finally finished my LITE assignment!
oh yes!
at least one is done.
now rushing out another two assignment!
terrible thing!
omgness!
i'm so tired already!
spent the whole afternoon finishing LITE online!
walao!
i can't believe i spent almost 5hrs on my chair with my both eyes focused on the screen!
serves me right!
now i'm having headache.
i really deserves it.
ok.
gotta be a good girl & continue reading my article!
BYE.
oh yes!
at least one is done.
now rushing out another two assignment!
terrible thing!
omgness!
i'm so tired already!
spent the whole afternoon finishing LITE online!
walao!
i can't believe i spent almost 5hrs on my chair with my both eyes focused on the screen!
serves me right!
now i'm having headache.
i really deserves it.
ok.
gotta be a good girl & continue reading my article!
BYE.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
STRESS
so tired..
im still so stressed.
guanjen better ring me tml once he call Sue..
oh manx.
suddenly feel so bad to abandon kangjing alone for bridging..
but im just so NOOB in maths-related stuffs.
i rather read & read & read!
haix.
sianx la.
no mood to do anything.
reading the 17-page of my assignment seriously driving me nuts.
its not difficult to finish reading ok.
lotsa of understanding is the most crucial point.
thats the main point of assignment.
oh manx!
i need a break.
i have no time for anything.
btw,
i must thank DADDY for buying me a new laptop.
I LOVE U, DADDY!
im still so stressed.
guanjen better ring me tml once he call Sue..
oh manx.
suddenly feel so bad to abandon kangjing alone for bridging..
but im just so NOOB in maths-related stuffs.
i rather read & read & read!
haix.
sianx la.
no mood to do anything.
reading the 17-page of my assignment seriously driving me nuts.
its not difficult to finish reading ok.
lotsa of understanding is the most crucial point.
thats the main point of assignment.
oh manx!
i need a break.
i have no time for anything.
btw,
i must thank DADDY for buying me a new laptop.
I LOVE U, DADDY!
Saturday, May 08, 2010
losing my sense of direction..
i felt so unwell after class.
wonder if its because of the subject that i attended today.
im overloaded with statistics.
oh god.
this is not funny at all.
seriously giving me a terrible headache.
& my head is still turning round & round..
suppose to revise thru wat the lecturer has said today..
but because of e headache..
i laid on my sofa till now.
had a cold shower but it doesnt help at all.
im wondering if i should drop marketing management & just focus on psychology..
haix.
im so confused now.
thank god that i found 2 valuable friends that will be going thru psychology with me.
& they are Kang Jing & Guanjen..
they are really nice classmates of mine.
i will be so sad to leave them if im gonna drop marketing unit.
suddenly dono wat i want now..
dono where e hell im going to..
lost my sense of direction in life.
this feeling is definitely not a good thing.
& im feeling like hell now..
figuring if i want or not!?
FREAK!
my brain juice is currently out of stock.
all because of statistics.
dammit*
all i need now are support & encouragement from my loved ones.
not quarrels.
not arguments.
not misunderstandings.
baby,
i really need your support & encouragement badly at this moment.
i feel like breaking down anytime any moment.
ok.
shall sleep now to reproduce my brain juice for tml's statistics war!
god..pls bless me.
pls keep me wide awake so that i can concentrate all the way from 9am-6pm!
wonder if its because of the subject that i attended today.
im overloaded with statistics.
oh god.
this is not funny at all.
seriously giving me a terrible headache.
& my head is still turning round & round..
suppose to revise thru wat the lecturer has said today..
but because of e headache..
i laid on my sofa till now.
had a cold shower but it doesnt help at all.
im wondering if i should drop marketing management & just focus on psychology..
haix.
im so confused now.
thank god that i found 2 valuable friends that will be going thru psychology with me.
& they are Kang Jing & Guanjen..
they are really nice classmates of mine.
i will be so sad to leave them if im gonna drop marketing unit.
suddenly dono wat i want now..
dono where e hell im going to..
lost my sense of direction in life.
this feeling is definitely not a good thing.
& im feeling like hell now..
figuring if i want or not!?
FREAK!
my brain juice is currently out of stock.
all because of statistics.
dammit*
all i need now are support & encouragement from my loved ones.
not quarrels.
not arguments.
not misunderstandings.
baby,
i really need your support & encouragement badly at this moment.
i feel like breaking down anytime any moment.
ok.
shall sleep now to reproduce my brain juice for tml's statistics war!
god..pls bless me.
pls keep me wide awake so that i can concentrate all the way from 9am-6pm!
terrible life..
so stress up with weekly assignments & coming presentations!
omgness!
damn it manx.
no more freedom liao lor!
this week im fully booked with work & school.
lets see..
Monday 3 May
11am-6pm @work.
7pm-10pm @school.
Tuesday 4 May
11am-3pm @work.
7pm-10pm @ school.
Wednesday 5 May
11am-6pm @ work.
7pm-10pm @ school.
Thursday 6 May
11am-3pm @ work.
6pm-10.30pm @ work.
Friday 7 May
11am-5.30pm @ work.
met up with Kang Jing for dinner - centrepoint entrance @ 6pm.
6.30pm-10pm @ school.
Saturday 8 May
9am-6pm @ school for business statistics.
after that gotta rush home for a shower & meet baby for our movie session.
Sunday 9 May
9am-6pm @ school for business statistics AGAIN!
see how busy i am..?!
next week will be WORSE THAN EVER!
i will probably drop dead on 14 May which is definitely not a TGIF for me!
Business Statistics FINAL EXAM at 7pm-10pm.
& the next day will be..
9am-6pm for BUSINESS ACCOUNTING!
ARGH!
THIS IS ABSOLUTELY SHIT!
UNIVERSITY LIFE is definitely not a great thing at all.
there's nothing except STRESS!
ok..
i have to sleep now!
have to wake up at 7am SHARP tml!
nitex.
wish me luck manx!
omgness!
damn it manx.
no more freedom liao lor!
this week im fully booked with work & school.
lets see..
Monday 3 May
11am-6pm @work.
7pm-10pm @school.
Tuesday 4 May
11am-3pm @work.
7pm-10pm @ school.
Wednesday 5 May
11am-6pm @ work.
7pm-10pm @ school.
Thursday 6 May
11am-3pm @ work.
6pm-10.30pm @ work.
Friday 7 May
11am-5.30pm @ work.
met up with Kang Jing for dinner - centrepoint entrance @ 6pm.
6.30pm-10pm @ school.
Saturday 8 May
9am-6pm @ school for business statistics.
after that gotta rush home for a shower & meet baby for our movie session.
Sunday 9 May
9am-6pm @ school for business statistics AGAIN!
see how busy i am..?!
next week will be WORSE THAN EVER!
i will probably drop dead on 14 May which is definitely not a TGIF for me!
Business Statistics FINAL EXAM at 7pm-10pm.
& the next day will be..
9am-6pm for BUSINESS ACCOUNTING!
ARGH!
THIS IS ABSOLUTELY SHIT!
UNIVERSITY LIFE is definitely not a great thing at all.
there's nothing except STRESS!
ok..
i have to sleep now!
have to wake up at 7am SHARP tml!
nitex.
wish me luck manx!
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